Without You . That Will Be How I Dissapear.

Well. I'm Like Blogging everyday nowadays. Its like talking to someone really really close. I miss actually talking . But this is a worthy substitution so you're gonna see me very often. I blurt out everything here. It feels so much better afterwards. A temporary ecstasy to my pain.

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Today was boring as ever. Tiring and sad. But laughed like mad just now because of some joke a wrestler made. those who know about wrestling would know. JOHN CENA JUST SAID : When he was in cloud nine when i won that match. But suddenly a man that is WHITER than cloud nine Sheamus came and kicked me in the face. LMAO. THEN HE SAID. IM CHALLENGING THAT FREAKING HUMAN JAR OF MAYONAISE SHEAMUS. LOL! I didnt laugh like that for a very long time. Haha . IT felt great.

Had dinner with Xiu Ming just now. Didnt eat though. No appetite. Yeah kinda rare for me. Sat down and listened to her memorise sejarah stuff. Im so sorry i swore. Had teh tarik. And haha she noticed i've grown abit taller :D . And i looked different somehow nowadays.

I think i looked different because i cant seem to smile properly nowadays. My face feels like paper. Nothing gives me the motivation to smile again. Hurt by failures. Torn by lost oppurtunities. But always salvage by hopes. Like they say. HOPES DIE LAST! It maybe false or broken hopes. But i still have it. Something seems to give me hope everyday. Even though the hope is so fragile that its like almost hanging on a string. I'll still cherish it and embrace it. Hope i shall have. And maybe someday , Hope i shall give.
Will you come back and stop this pain tonight? Because you're already the voice inside my head. Turn my frowns upside down .

I Tried to be perfect but nothing was worth it. I've Never been so wrong.

My one wish is to talk to you now. I wish somehow you'll miraculously call me or something. But that aint gonna happen. But i'll still have hope.

Instead of studying bio. Im playing my guitar with emo songs blasting in my ears. Talking to huongyi about all the emo stuff. Maybe frustrating him lol.

You dont know how much i miss you. Every single second i have. My mind is full of thoughts of you. I need a hug from you again to make me smile again. Like you never failed to do. I think hugging my winnie will have to do tonight.

Ku rasa bagaikan malam ini terang. Sungguh indah Seindah sinarnya. Terdengar dalam Khayalan masa itu. Mesti mimpi. Tersenyum dalam mimpi tu.

Paint My Skies Bright Blue Again. Hypnotise me. Mesmerise me. Take me away once again.

You're Special , You're Like A Rocket Through Me.










Love em Pon And Zi.

Signing off.
Missing you. Sweet Dreams.