What a day. Stupid Chem exams. I cant do. EVEN WITH LEAKS. Now that is stupid. I FEEL SO STUPID D: . I practically did what i did best nowadays. SLEEP! THE WHOLE DAY! I feel so so so. so. UNPRODUCTIVE. :( . IWANTRAMNIESANDIWANTTHEMNOW. Okay so now im kinda back playing football. Im back as a left footer. My right foot is as useless as SHIT. I hope i can still kick a ball. Or even run . D: . I'd hate to say this but. I dont care . Im gonna play the game i love. Even if i lose my right leg and be some useless leftfoot guy who uses left foot because he's actually a right footer but cant use his right foot anymore! LOL. now that was long. So . Feeling better by the minute. I did something amazing just now. I added green tea with peppermint powder , jasmine petals and honey. It makes a surprisingly refreshing cold drink! :D . I wanna thank my 2 bros for helping me back into football. Play with them weekly abit of kickabouts here and there. Trained my limping right foot back into a walking one. DERRICK IS STILL A DIPSHIT! I cant find my freaking fifa 10 cd. :( . I LOVE HOW I MET YOUR MOTHER! Funniest shit ever man.
Signing off. Goodnight world. :)
Monday, May 31, 2010
Sunday, May 30, 2010
Smashed into Pieces. But hopefuly still alive.
Exams. and i i shouldnt be here. But what the hell. RAWR. Chemistry leaks again? -.- i've gotta stop this leak crap. I need chocolate! ROAR . BUT I JUST ATE CHOCOLATE. Haih. I CANT FIND ANY RAMNIES ANYWHERE D: THIS SUCKS. I NEED RAMNIES. ROAR. Too tired to write anymore.
Signing off. Still miss you.
Signing off. Still miss you.
Beneath The Encasing Of Ash And Dust , Lies My Emotions.
OH great what a day. SLEEPING as usual. Im never tired of sleeping. Allows me to escape reality for a moment :) . Okay so. today was simple. Sleep and eat. Rawr. I feel so lifeless. Been playing guitar alot suddenly . My fingers are skinned :D . Ate pan mee for breakfast / lunch at 3'oclock -.- . I MADE UP SOMETHING CALLED RAMNIES ! Ramly + BROWNIES. Now thats what i call a perfect dish :D . I need something that keeps me going everyday and i think i found it. Chasing my dreams. Plotting every single move in my head. Not dreams as i career and stuff. Dreams as in goals that i awnna complete in a few days or so. I've been living int he past for the past 1 month. Time to fly back to the present. EXAMS AND I AINT STUDYING WOO! YEAH! :D . John predicts that im gonna be an alam flora staff next time. DONT THINK SO. I'D BE A POST MAN! ALAM FLORA STINKS!!! I need ecstasy. I think i wanna try out some weed! :D . I can get some. I know my sources :D. I FOUND MY OLD POLICE REPORT :O. Oh damned son of a mother. I am a badddd boy >: ) . ROCK STAR! Cant believe that i used to be so gay. LOL. I need my old life back. The carefree-ness. Less responsibilities. Less things to care about. Slinky , dirty and retarded . OH WELL. Time to change. (:
Signing off.
Signing off.
Saturday, May 29, 2010
Weee
Had a great day i guess. :D. I feel so much happier i guess. life's been abit easier. Well. today i woke up at 5 so whatever nothing to say LOL. Has Japanese food for dinner tho. It was lovely :D . GRILLED FISH RULEZ! Oh wells. Practically dota-ed my night away. Met 2 new friends tonight HAHA. One dude from kedah named Jae Hann and Someone who is gonna give me a WINNIE THE POOH TOY!! Thanks Trisha Toh :D . Nice to meet you guys btw.
Oh wells. Goodnight. Signing off. Miss you. :)
Oh wells. Goodnight. Signing off. Miss you. :)
Friday, May 28, 2010
Scream For My Ice Cream! ♥
Okay. Im sick of putting up emo posts and all. So I'll try to have a happy one. Today was boring as usual. Woke up at 2, had some breakfast and all. Found my old camera so i got some old imba gay shit SS camwhoring shots of myself :D . Ahh brings back memories :D .
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Wow. People actaullay call me lengzai. HAHA GOT MEH? I LOOK DAMN SOHAI OK.
Woo i got super cool hair in this one :D
Woo when i got my 1st piercings.
SHIT i feel like slapping myself. SO GAY D:
I DAMN BAJET GANGSTER D:
WEEEEE!! SUSHI KING ! :D
Then after that i got a few pics that i saved inside the camera. Wasnt taken by me tho :D
LOL. i remembered this. i loook so blur :D
SOME FOOTBALL FORMATIONS! WOO!
Some pics i took in HONG KONG! :D . Lazy to post all.
MY BIRTHDAY :D
THEN WTH IS THIS? btw this wasnt acted out. IT REALLY HAPPENED. DURING BIO!
Me learning pool at subang square :D
Ooh I loved green tea frap :D
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AND THIS ONE HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH MY CAMERA! I SAW IT AND LAUGHED MY ASS OFF. * note: anderson got jealous* :D
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Tears of joys and memories flood my eyes! I love getting myself back into thesse memories. And SCREW YOU ALVIN FOR DITCHING ME IN DOTA. SAME GOES FOR JULIAN SHERN JIIAN AND CHEN SHEN. GAY FAGS.
Signing Off. Goodnight. Miss You. Sweet Dreams. :D
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Wow. People actaullay call me lengzai. HAHA GOT MEH? I LOOK DAMN SOHAI OK.
Woo i got super cool hair in this one :D
Woo when i got my 1st piercings.
SHIT i feel like slapping myself. SO GAY D:
I DAMN BAJET GANGSTER D:
WEEEEE!! SUSHI KING ! :D
Then after that i got a few pics that i saved inside the camera. Wasnt taken by me tho :D
LOL. i remembered this. i loook so blur :D
SOME FOOTBALL FORMATIONS! WOO!
Some pics i took in HONG KONG! :D . Lazy to post all.
MY BIRTHDAY :D
THEN WTH IS THIS? btw this wasnt acted out. IT REALLY HAPPENED. DURING BIO!
Me learning pool at subang square :D
Ooh I loved green tea frap :D
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AND THIS ONE HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH MY CAMERA! I SAW IT AND LAUGHED MY ASS OFF. * note: anderson got jealous* :D
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Tears of joys and memories flood my eyes! I love getting myself back into thesse memories. And SCREW YOU ALVIN FOR DITCHING ME IN DOTA. SAME GOES FOR JULIAN SHERN JIIAN AND CHEN SHEN. GAY FAGS.
Signing Off. Goodnight. Miss You. Sweet Dreams. :D
Thursday, May 27, 2010
I'm Lost Without You.
I swear that I can go on forever again
Please let me know that my one bad day will end
I will go down as your lover, your friend
Are you afraid of being alone
Cause I am, I'm lost without you
Are you afraid of leaving tonight
Cause I am, I'm lost without you
I'll leave my room open till sunrise for you
I'll keep my eyes patiently focused on you
Where are you now I can hear footsteps I'm dreaming
And if you will, keep me from waking to believe this.
If you plan on leaving tonight. Im lost forever .
Please let me know that my one bad day will end
I will go down as your lover, your friend
Are you afraid of being alone
Cause I am, I'm lost without you
Are you afraid of leaving tonight
Cause I am, I'm lost without you
I'll leave my room open till sunrise for you
I'll keep my eyes patiently focused on you
Where are you now I can hear footsteps I'm dreaming
And if you will, keep me from waking to believe this.
If you plan on leaving tonight. Im lost forever .
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
I Think I Died From The Collision Of Your Kiss , Because I Feel Like Im In Heaven. : )
Yesterday was a tiring day so i didnt update . Well been very active because its new and i wanna make it look nice. LOL... So erm yeah. Tried to sleep early yesterday but failed again. But thanks for twinkle twinkle little star yesterday! :D . Okay so yesterday was kinda stupid. All i did was sit on a railing on a bridge looking emo , some old dude came to me asked me not to jump. Now do i look that suicidal? Well I THINK SO. :( . Then like 1 hour afater that some car almost smashed me into bits. Emergency breaked in time just for the bumper to touch my feet. Thank god im alive .
My legs hurt like crap lately. So does my back. And my head. All i do in exams are falling asleep. Now thats just gay. I think i aced physics and add maths. You guys get what i mean. ;D . ngehehe. Imbaness of my shoe!
Well,
And it`s happened once again
I`ll turn to a friend
Someone that understands
Sees through the master plan
But everybody`s gone
And I`ve been here for too long
To face this on my own
Well I guess this is growing up.
And I got this song that i think has really cool lyrics lol.
Good Charlotte- Break Apart Her Heart.
When you call she doesn't answer, when you write she doesn't answer
You go out you see him with her, she told you she was sick at home
The ring you gave her thrown away with all the letters
And when you see him with her, he doesn't even care at all
As she follows him around like you follow her around
And he doesn't even care and your figuring out
The only way your gonna keep somebody around
Well I'm about to let you know
There's something I don't wanna understand
The only way a woman is gonna want a man
The only way you'll ever keep her in your hands
Is breaking apart her heart
Don't tell her she is the reason that you live
Don't give her everything that you got to give
If you want to keep the girl for as long as you live
Just break it apart her heart
Can't you see the way she's crying
Well that's what keeps her trying, she knew that she could have you
And he don't give her what she wants
There's truth about this, you say you want to be noticed
Well if you want to be noticed you gotta learn to break some hearts
Don't try to understand
Can't you see what you've done?
What I've become, what I've become
Can't you see? Can't you see?
I don't understand this cruelty
I don't understand... its just not me
I don't understand this cruelty
But now I see.
Damn emo wow.
My legs hurt like crap lately. So does my back. And my head. All i do in exams are falling asleep. Now thats just gay. I think i aced physics and add maths. You guys get what i mean. ;D . ngehehe. Imbaness of my shoe!
Well,
And it`s happened once again
I`ll turn to a friend
Someone that understands
Sees through the master plan
But everybody`s gone
And I`ve been here for too long
To face this on my own
Well I guess this is growing up.
And I got this song that i think has really cool lyrics lol.
Good Charlotte- Break Apart Her Heart.
When you call she doesn't answer, when you write she doesn't answer
You go out you see him with her, she told you she was sick at home
The ring you gave her thrown away with all the letters
And when you see him with her, he doesn't even care at all
As she follows him around like you follow her around
And he doesn't even care and your figuring out
The only way your gonna keep somebody around
Well I'm about to let you know
There's something I don't wanna understand
The only way a woman is gonna want a man
The only way you'll ever keep her in your hands
Is breaking apart her heart
Don't tell her she is the reason that you live
Don't give her everything that you got to give
If you want to keep the girl for as long as you live
Just break it apart her heart
Can't you see the way she's crying
Well that's what keeps her trying, she knew that she could have you
And he don't give her what she wants
There's truth about this, you say you want to be noticed
Well if you want to be noticed you gotta learn to break some hearts
Don't try to understand
Can't you see what you've done?
What I've become, what I've become
Can't you see? Can't you see?
I don't understand this cruelty
I don't understand... its just not me
I don't understand this cruelty
But now I see.
Damn emo wow.
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Without You . That Will Be How I Dissapear.
Well. I'm Like Blogging everyday nowadays. Its like talking to someone really really close. I miss actually talking . But this is a worthy substitution so you're gonna see me very often. I blurt out everything here. It feels so much better afterwards. A temporary ecstasy to my pain.
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Today was boring as ever. Tiring and sad. But laughed like mad just now because of some joke a wrestler made. those who know about wrestling would know. JOHN CENA JUST SAID : When he was in cloud nine when i won that match. But suddenly a man that is WHITER than cloud nine Sheamus came and kicked me in the face. LMAO. THEN HE SAID. IM CHALLENGING THAT FREAKING HUMAN JAR OF MAYONAISE SHEAMUS. LOL! I didnt laugh like that for a very long time. Haha . IT felt great.
Had dinner with Xiu Ming just now. Didnt eat though. No appetite. Yeah kinda rare for me. Sat down and listened to her memorise sejarah stuff. Im so sorry i swore. Had teh tarik. And haha she noticed i've grown abit taller :D . And i looked different somehow nowadays.
I think i looked different because i cant seem to smile properly nowadays. My face feels like paper. Nothing gives me the motivation to smile again. Hurt by failures. Torn by lost oppurtunities. But always salvage by hopes. Like they say. HOPES DIE LAST! It maybe false or broken hopes. But i still have it. Something seems to give me hope everyday. Even though the hope is so fragile that its like almost hanging on a string. I'll still cherish it and embrace it. Hope i shall have. And maybe someday , Hope i shall give.
Will you come back and stop this pain tonight? Because you're already the voice inside my head. Turn my frowns upside down .
I Tried to be perfect but nothing was worth it. I've Never been so wrong.
My one wish is to talk to you now. I wish somehow you'll miraculously call me or something. But that aint gonna happen. But i'll still have hope.
Instead of studying bio. Im playing my guitar with emo songs blasting in my ears. Talking to huongyi about all the emo stuff. Maybe frustrating him lol.
You dont know how much i miss you. Every single second i have. My mind is full of thoughts of you. I need a hug from you again to make me smile again. Like you never failed to do. I think hugging my winnie will have to do tonight.
Ku rasa bagaikan malam ini terang. Sungguh indah Seindah sinarnya. Terdengar dalam Khayalan masa itu. Mesti mimpi. Tersenyum dalam mimpi tu.
Paint My Skies Bright Blue Again. Hypnotise me. Mesmerise me. Take me away once again.
You're Special , You're Like A Rocket Through Me.
Love em Pon And Zi.
Signing off.
Missing you. Sweet Dreams.
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Today was boring as ever. Tiring and sad. But laughed like mad just now because of some joke a wrestler made. those who know about wrestling would know. JOHN CENA JUST SAID : When he was in cloud nine when i won that match. But suddenly a man that is WHITER than cloud nine Sheamus came and kicked me in the face. LMAO. THEN HE SAID. IM CHALLENGING THAT FREAKING HUMAN JAR OF MAYONAISE SHEAMUS. LOL! I didnt laugh like that for a very long time. Haha . IT felt great.
Had dinner with Xiu Ming just now. Didnt eat though. No appetite. Yeah kinda rare for me. Sat down and listened to her memorise sejarah stuff. Im so sorry i swore. Had teh tarik. And haha she noticed i've grown abit taller :D . And i looked different somehow nowadays.
I think i looked different because i cant seem to smile properly nowadays. My face feels like paper. Nothing gives me the motivation to smile again. Hurt by failures. Torn by lost oppurtunities. But always salvage by hopes. Like they say. HOPES DIE LAST! It maybe false or broken hopes. But i still have it. Something seems to give me hope everyday. Even though the hope is so fragile that its like almost hanging on a string. I'll still cherish it and embrace it. Hope i shall have. And maybe someday , Hope i shall give.
Will you come back and stop this pain tonight? Because you're already the voice inside my head. Turn my frowns upside down .
I Tried to be perfect but nothing was worth it. I've Never been so wrong.
My one wish is to talk to you now. I wish somehow you'll miraculously call me or something. But that aint gonna happen. But i'll still have hope.
Instead of studying bio. Im playing my guitar with emo songs blasting in my ears. Talking to huongyi about all the emo stuff. Maybe frustrating him lol.
You dont know how much i miss you. Every single second i have. My mind is full of thoughts of you. I need a hug from you again to make me smile again. Like you never failed to do. I think hugging my winnie will have to do tonight.
Ku rasa bagaikan malam ini terang. Sungguh indah Seindah sinarnya. Terdengar dalam Khayalan masa itu. Mesti mimpi. Tersenyum dalam mimpi tu.
Paint My Skies Bright Blue Again. Hypnotise me. Mesmerise me. Take me away once again.
You're Special , You're Like A Rocket Through Me.
Love em Pon And Zi.
Signing off.
Missing you. Sweet Dreams.
Monday, May 24, 2010
All You Brought Me Was More Bullet Holes , But Then I Will Still Repay You With My Love.
Oh what a day. Moral exams. Leaked , yet i fell asleep during exams. Stupid me didnt sleep at all the previous night. What a waste of time. Stupid exams nowadays. Its so stupid that every freaking paper is leaked. Tha is so unfair to people that actually studied (not me , Im a hypocrite ) . Haih. Everybody will get a then spm will be freaking ass tough. GOOD JOB GUYS. ASSFUCKS! WHAT YOU WANT FROM US. KNOWING THAT WE WILL BE TEMPTED TO SEE THE FREAKING LEAKS! WHY... I WANT SPM TO BE EASY ! Well. I had some coffee in Old Taste SS15 just now so i might have difficulity sleeping. Well. Today was bloody tiring so i aint talk much. Emo as ever i dont know why. I felt like some giant chunk of me got torn out from me. Thanks Shane for talking to me tonight. We had this super emo convo. About our problems and all. If you'd seen the convo. You'll be surprised.
Sigh. I want that chunk of my heart to be returned. If it does. I would feel a hell lot better. Instead of wondering all day. What The Fuck HAPPENED? What in the FUCK went wrong. It kills me to say but. I think i know. But i was too blind to see. I was stupid.
I guess Im gonna learn to sing or something and spend time with my old mp3. Hmm. Tonight i still wish the stars would somehow still spell out your name. I hope i dont have nightmares tonight D:. And shane stop trying to make me sing. .__.
Signing Off. But Still missing you. Sweet Dreams.
Sigh. I want that chunk of my heart to be returned. If it does. I would feel a hell lot better. Instead of wondering all day. What The Fuck HAPPENED? What in the FUCK went wrong. It kills me to say but. I think i know. But i was too blind to see. I was stupid.
I guess Im gonna learn to sing or something and spend time with my old mp3. Hmm. Tonight i still wish the stars would somehow still spell out your name. I hope i dont have nightmares tonight D:. And shane stop trying to make me sing. .__.
Signing Off. But Still missing you. Sweet Dreams.
Sunday, May 23, 2010
For The Days That I Fear The Air I Breathe
Oh once again. Another sad day has passed. I lay wondering when will be next day i would be happy for the entire day. I lived the past 7 months with you as the purpose of me waking up everyday. My objective was to make you smile. I still wanna do it. But you have someone else now and i feel that im just an obstacle. You might not think so but the least , i think i am. I still make an effort because I still * you. I must face the facts sooner or later. I soon will need a new purpose to live on. Im living on distractions currently. But still i feel as lonely as ever. I rarely talk to smile nowadays , maybe its because my face is so dry that it feels like paper . Maybe its the pimple cream i am using. but what the hell.
Something made me really really happy today. I FOUND MY OLD MP3 YAY! OMG. BRINGS BACK SO MANY MEMORIES :DD . DAMN COOL. Its like i was form 3 again. WEE. So carefree and happy. Okay maybe i was damn sohai. Smoker and gangster all. Stupid actually. But still. Its full of my old favourite songs. Like songs from Silverstein , AFI ,Estranged, Angels and Airwaves, Artic Monkeys ,Black Sabbath , Bowling For Soup,Hujan , Medic Droid, Limp Bizkit,Mew,System of a down , And like hundreds more lol. OH SHIT. I FEEL LIKE A KID AGAIN. WEEE!
Omg. I dont love you by mcr is soooo damn emo. I LOVED THAT SONG SHIT. WHEN YOU GO! WOULD YOU EVEN TURN TO SAY? I DONT LOVE YOU! LIKE I DID! YESTERDAY. DAMN MAN WOO. Brings memories of going to their concert in Malaysia. IT WAS FULL OF EMO PEOPLE -.- .
ANDAINYA AKU TAHU , ERTINYA DISURUH!
Shit. I feel so gay rempit ass now. Shit shit. I LOVE YOU OLD MP3! I think im gonna do my final rounds of moral then go to sleep. Haih. Dont haunt my sleeps anymore. Please
Something made me really really happy today. I FOUND MY OLD MP3 YAY! OMG. BRINGS BACK SO MANY MEMORIES :DD . DAMN COOL. Its like i was form 3 again. WEE. So carefree and happy. Okay maybe i was damn sohai. Smoker and gangster all. Stupid actually. But still. Its full of my old favourite songs. Like songs from Silverstein , AFI ,Estranged, Angels and Airwaves, Artic Monkeys ,Black Sabbath , Bowling For Soup,Hujan , Medic Droid, Limp Bizkit,Mew,System of a down , And like hundreds more lol. OH SHIT. I FEEL LIKE A KID AGAIN. WEEE!
Omg. I dont love you by mcr is soooo damn emo. I LOVED THAT SONG SHIT. WHEN YOU GO! WOULD YOU EVEN TURN TO SAY? I DONT LOVE YOU! LIKE I DID! YESTERDAY. DAMN MAN WOO. Brings memories of going to their concert in Malaysia. IT WAS FULL OF EMO PEOPLE -.- .
ANDAINYA AKU TAHU , ERTINYA DISURUH!
Shit. I feel so gay rempit ass now. Shit shit. I LOVE YOU OLD MP3! I think im gonna do my final rounds of moral then go to sleep. Haih. Dont haunt my sleeps anymore. Please
God Please Bless Our Imperfections Because Its All We Have Left
Maybe im being just a little too emo. I should turn it down a notch or so. I should learn to be happy again. But if i forget all of these shits , im scared that i might return to my old horny slinky dirty retarded self. Dont forget the Cigg Fagging part of me that hasnt been around for quite some time and the stupid retarded gangster part of me that dissapeared since the police incident. Sigh OH WELL. THIS IS SO ME-GAH.
Well today was as boring as ever. Woke up at 3 so nothing much to write about , maybe later tonight. Had leftover sarawak mee for breakfast / lunch. Very cold and soggy wasnt appetising but its still food. Still quite angry at Bayern Munich last night. What a bunch of fags. Useless got godly possesion but still lost to the retards called Inter Milan. So much for supporting you pieces of shits. SCREW JOSE MOURINHO! I only got 30 freaking cents left on my phone. Actually studied moral YAY! *got leak sure la* :P The Fag That Killed Us All Jose Mourinho.
Been listening to so many emo songs lately . Damn im turning suicidal D; . Now thats just gay. Love the band called Alesana lately. Freaking gay ass suicidal screamo. SHIT I USED TO HATE THESE SONGS. WHAT AM I NOW?
Alesana. Gay Ass Emo-People. ROCKS!
But i love this song's lyrics tho. Not Alesena but actually sung by a hardcore band called Rise Against! Woo. \m/
SAVIOR.
It kills me not to know this but I've all but just forgotten
What the color of her eyes were and her scars or how she got them
As the telling signs of age rain down a single tear is dropping
Through the valleys of an aging face that this world has forgotten
There is no reconciliation that will put me in my place
And there is no time like the present to drink these draining seconds
But seldom do these words ring true when I'm constantly failing you
Like walls that we just can't break through until we disappear
So tell me now
If this ain't love then how do we get out?
Because I don't know
That's when she said I don't hate you boy
I just want to save you while there's still something left to save
That's when I told her I love you girl
But I'm not the answer to the questions that you still have
But the day pressed on like crushing weights
For no man does it ever wait
Like memories of dying days
That deafen us like hurricanes
Bathed in flames we held the brand
Uncurled the fingers in your hand
Pressed into the flesh like sand
Now do you understand?
1000 miles away
There's nothing left to say
But so much left that I don't know
We never had a choice
This world is too much noise
It takes me under
It takes me under once again
I don't hate you , no.
Ps. I love hugging you Winnie the Pooh. Hugged you at least a thousand times these past few days. Love you. (:
Well today was as boring as ever. Woke up at 3 so nothing much to write about , maybe later tonight. Had leftover sarawak mee for breakfast / lunch. Very cold and soggy wasnt appetising but its still food. Still quite angry at Bayern Munich last night. What a bunch of fags. Useless got godly possesion but still lost to the retards called Inter Milan. So much for supporting you pieces of shits. SCREW JOSE MOURINHO! I only got 30 freaking cents left on my phone. Actually studied moral YAY! *got leak sure la* :P The Fag That Killed Us All Jose Mourinho.
Been listening to so many emo songs lately . Damn im turning suicidal D; . Now thats just gay. Love the band called Alesana lately. Freaking gay ass suicidal screamo. SHIT I USED TO HATE THESE SONGS. WHAT AM I NOW?
Alesana. Gay Ass Emo-People. ROCKS!
But i love this song's lyrics tho. Not Alesena but actually sung by a hardcore band called Rise Against! Woo. \m/
SAVIOR.
It kills me not to know this but I've all but just forgotten
What the color of her eyes were and her scars or how she got them
As the telling signs of age rain down a single tear is dropping
Through the valleys of an aging face that this world has forgotten
There is no reconciliation that will put me in my place
And there is no time like the present to drink these draining seconds
But seldom do these words ring true when I'm constantly failing you
Like walls that we just can't break through until we disappear
So tell me now
If this ain't love then how do we get out?
Because I don't know
That's when she said I don't hate you boy
I just want to save you while there's still something left to save
That's when I told her I love you girl
But I'm not the answer to the questions that you still have
But the day pressed on like crushing weights
For no man does it ever wait
Like memories of dying days
That deafen us like hurricanes
Bathed in flames we held the brand
Uncurled the fingers in your hand
Pressed into the flesh like sand
Now do you understand?
1000 miles away
There's nothing left to say
But so much left that I don't know
We never had a choice
This world is too much noise
It takes me under
It takes me under once again
I don't hate you , no.
Ps. I love hugging you Winnie the Pooh. Hugged you at least a thousand times these past few days. Love you. (:
Saturday, May 22, 2010
When I'll Scream Your Name Out!
I know its 4.30 in the morning and im supposed to be sleeping but what the hell. Cant sleep nowadays and i really need loads of it. Oh wells.
Sigh. You know how much i miss you. You know how much i miss the way we used to talk. You know how much i miss the way your eyes used to be. You know how much i miss actually talking to you. You know how much i wished you'd tell me everything like last time. I miss times we used to talk the whole day. Now we barely talk. I miss your goodnights , goodmornings and those little moments i never realised until now. IF i had a chance to go back in time and relive these moments differently i will. Do you know how much i miss you when i hear or see you , you'll give me hope and the will to live. I miss emptiying my worldly sorrows just by talking to you. Its just not the same anymore and i doubt it'll ever be. People change. I've changed. I've regret many decisions i make but i cant turn back time, i do not have divine powers.
"You know for you i'd kill myself and paint the heavens a whiter white . Turn demons into angels. Yeah thats how great you are to me. You're the ecstasy to my pain , the sanitarium for my doubts.Your can destroy my worldy sorrows. Nothing can ever shine quite as bright as your eyes. You take my breath away. Yes that 's how much you mean to me. "
I cant remember the entire note but i think this is bits and pieces of it. It took alot of me to write that. (:
That smile of yours,
Shall be my sunstter.
Always will be,
Yet same as ever.
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There was once upon a time,
Then there was nothing.
Once again,
Your silence blocks my everything.
I thought i can be,
The key to end your loneliness.
Tried to open your heart,
And clear its emptiness.
A smile so sweet,
The symphany in your voice.
Everytime i look at you,
Your beauty shuts out every noise.
I want all the answers,
But i stilll do not know the questions.
Please end my doubts,
Because it draws me to a submission.
You know for you,
I'd still run a thousand miles.
Because I'd still do anything,
For that smile.
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I miss you , trust me I really do
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Sigh. You know how much i miss you. You know how much i miss the way we used to talk. You know how much i miss the way your eyes used to be. You know how much i miss actually talking to you. You know how much i wished you'd tell me everything like last time. I miss times we used to talk the whole day. Now we barely talk. I miss your goodnights , goodmornings and those little moments i never realised until now. IF i had a chance to go back in time and relive these moments differently i will. Do you know how much i miss you when i hear or see you , you'll give me hope and the will to live. I miss emptiying my worldly sorrows just by talking to you. Its just not the same anymore and i doubt it'll ever be. People change. I've changed. I've regret many decisions i make but i cant turn back time, i do not have divine powers.
"You know for you i'd kill myself and paint the heavens a whiter white . Turn demons into angels. Yeah thats how great you are to me. You're the ecstasy to my pain , the sanitarium for my doubts.Your can destroy my worldy sorrows. Nothing can ever shine quite as bright as your eyes. You take my breath away. Yes that 's how much you mean to me. "
I cant remember the entire note but i think this is bits and pieces of it. It took alot of me to write that. (:
That smile of yours,
Shall be my sunstter.
Always will be,
Yet same as ever.
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There was once upon a time,
Then there was nothing.
Once again,
Your silence blocks my everything.
I thought i can be,
The key to end your loneliness.
Tried to open your heart,
And clear its emptiness.
A smile so sweet,
The symphany in your voice.
Everytime i look at you,
Your beauty shuts out every noise.
I want all the answers,
But i stilll do not know the questions.
Please end my doubts,
Because it draws me to a submission.
You know for you,
I'd still run a thousand miles.
Because I'd still do anything,
For that smile.
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I miss you , trust me I really do
.
Champions League Final !
INTER MILAN VS BAYERN MUNICH!
This year final is freaking ass boring. Noob like shit. WHERE IS BARCA , REAL MADRID ALL? AT LEAST LA MANU. DONT FORGET ARSENAL! ROAR! :D . EAT SHIT LA. Waste time to watch. BUT GO BAYERN. SCREW JOSE'S ASS OPEN. Dont like him and never will like him. Ass Cunt. Oh well. Its 30 mins to the game and m prediction will be 2-0 win for Bayern. With Robben They cannot fail! \m/ . Off to dota or something. Signing off.
ARJEN ROBBBEN! IM NOT A FAN BUT HE STILL ROCKS! ONE OF THE BEST WINGERS IN THE WORLD HAVE SEEN! 25 AND HAS NO HAIR ALREADY?! MUST BE THE GEL HE USED DAMN! :P
This year final is freaking ass boring. Noob like shit. WHERE IS BARCA , REAL MADRID ALL? AT LEAST LA MANU. DONT FORGET ARSENAL! ROAR! :D . EAT SHIT LA. Waste time to watch. BUT GO BAYERN. SCREW JOSE'S ASS OPEN. Dont like him and never will like him. Ass Cunt. Oh well. Its 30 mins to the game and m prediction will be 2-0 win for Bayern. With Robben They cannot fail! \m/ . Off to dota or something. Signing off.
ARJEN ROBBBEN! IM NOT A FAN BUT HE STILL ROCKS! ONE OF THE BEST WINGERS IN THE WORLD HAVE SEEN! 25 AND HAS NO HAIR ALREADY?! MUST BE THE GEL HE USED DAMN! :P
The Fall Behind The Horizon.
MY SECOND POST WEEEE! Boring day. All i did was stare in front of my freaking comp. Haih sitting in front of it doesnt help my leg and my backbone is aching like mother. Butts CAN actually grow big for sitting too long. Parents tried to get me to tuition but my will power let me stay :P. Had dinner at some shop near the old subang airport. I LOVE CRAB! Why must my parents shout at me everytime why must ruin my mood when i make the effort to smile? They asked me why i dont smile in front of them. ISNT IT OBVIOUS? I love them alot but its kinda annoying that they bug me with everything everytime. GAH I WANNA STAB SOMEONE ROAR! Eat shit la. Its a long way to builing myself up again. Heartaches tear me by day , Nightmares haunt me at night. What happened to my once pleasent days and peaceful nights? When did the stars i look at every night stop spelling out your name? Why leave when i claim it is love . But why stay when im the only one? Everything in the world seems to be against me. My freaking leg is killing me. I WANT MY LEG BACK. I need that something to give me hope everyday again. I need somebody to talk to again. Nobody seems close enough these days.BACKBONE ACHE! i need my bloody lipton green tea ! roar.
Friday, May 21, 2010
Sea Of Smiles.
Erm Yeah. HI! :D. this is like my very 1st post. I'm so proud! Finally have a blog. Errr yeah. Kinda new so forgive me if it looks kinda lame. IT WAS SHANE'S IDEA OKAY. Okay for those i have secretly linked sorry la. Link me Back kay. I just linked who i see now. So erm yea HI WORLD OF BLOG.
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