Its been a while since my last post. Been making use of my new found freedom. Hee :D . Yes i cant believe that i'll be the loser who gets sick and injured during christmas , but the christmas spirit in me has kept me going , went out for 2 whole days even tho my head is like being poked by bamboo sticks. So far , i can say life's been fair to me. Happy to be able to conclude that for once ;) .
Okay just wanna go thru a little about prom. 4 days before prom , my prom date got well , a boyfriend and it was really inappropraite for her to go with me , so yeah. Maybe some supernatural powers were at work because i found an even prom date , i think. Thank you again. Well , after prom was just crazy , my good friend Jeremy got so drunk , he practically walked into a pillar without noticing it. He slept over with me , hope im still not touched anywhere. And woke up with him poking my face. Weirdest thing ever. Freaky.
The Dudes
Yes, we look like a mafia gang or something.
Charissa , my prom date
Yes , we were already drunk
Rayna and me
With my sis :D , oh i look so blur here.
Oh and thennnnnnnnnnnnnn, I got invited by john to a xmas party with his cell group and loads of other friends.
Yes , we do look cool.
Love you dudes man :D
Sigh , im gonna miss you guys so much. Yes , i am getting emotional. I'll save that for later , a new post for 2010. :)
Yes, I am finally back after a month of absence . yes , this post stays true to its titile, someone there is driving me crazy! okay enough about that. Well , lets summarise what happened after spm. Went pyramid , ate papa john's watched the social network with gibby ee while others watched harry potter. Blloody good show , The Social Network ,5 stars! Blah bblah blah , went cc until 2 am after that . Ended up sleeping in nehe's house. WAIT BEST PART! we played an epic game of saidina (Malaysian Monopoly) Crap this is getting boring . ._. Woohoo! Popping bottles in the ice , Like a blizzard! :D
Well , i fell in love with a band called Adept. Lovely hardcore vocals!
Teehee :D
A dance beneath the sparkling sky,
The silent touch of vivid grace.
Your hand fits mine like a perfect match.
We kids in lust and the night is young
The dance that we share will guide the way.
The unforgettable romance.
You whisper "hope" like no one else.
But only for tonight.
I am the bullet in your gun
You've had me loaded since day one
So play your cards right girl,
This beating heart is yours to break!
This soldier surrenders,
Don't hesitate now,
This is what you wanted all along.
With steady hands she makes her aim
She locks and loads are you in her way?
Her smile hits the mark.
She has those gorgeous piercing eyes,
Red coloured lips that suck you dry
She is so fashion!
Her words might seem to make things right,
But she will walk on your hopes and dreams tonight.
She is so fashion!
She's deadly fashion!
She's been the talk of our town.
So we all know that her words are poison
She'll fake a smile when the timings right
But that cunt will stab you in the back
Her eyes are set to make the top.
She spread legs like a swing-door opens up
My bad, I started this rumour,
That you sell your mouth for a dollar!
And if I know her right, that precious little whore,
She's on her back screaming out for more.
So if I know her right, that precious little whore,
She's screaming
Her smile hits the mark
With steady hands she takes her aim
She locks and loads, are you in her way?
Lyrics that can kill a girl c:
So, how's life? Lovely! Everything s so flowery and nice now. I cant wait till December 20! :D
C'mon Start your bidding wars! 4 Ipod Shuffles are at stake here!! OKay i aint selling below 100 bucks . I realised I havent even opened em , so , keep those bids coming. Pics will be up by tmrw , keep yourselves posted!
Okay , Big Man Alvin T is gonna join an eating competition tmrw! Everybody please come! Support him , If he wins , FREE FOOD FOR A WHOLE YEAR! YES FREE. DONT GET ME WRONG. FREEEEEEE!!
Yes , its true. This band is my inspiration. Their lyrics live up to the name of this blog post title.
They are also known as : Alesana.
I doubt most of you dont know who are they. Their lyrics makes MCR (My chemical romance ) lyrics sound like kids stuff. They were formed in 2004 blah blah blah. Lets cut to the chase. Best band ever if you like lyrics that have a thousand hidden meanings and encrypted messages. I'll cover one of their songs one day , if i possibly scream as much as em before getting sore throat.
Here are some samples of their wonderful work.
The Artist.
What is wrong with her eyes?
A glossy stare that won't leave me be starts my blood running cold
A gaze that could make hell freeze over
I have to understand she's gone
But she's not
Don't you tell me that she is dead
Watch her lips softly move because she's still whispering to me!
And something here is not quite right
Skin so cold beneath my touch
as I brush back her hair and close her eyes
But I cannot stand to turn away
When I do, she'll be gone
It's frightening
Sweaty hands will fail to lock the door
They'll be here soon
I wish I could keep my teeth from grinding
I wish I'd stop looking behind me
Running now will only make it worse
They'll be here soon
I wish I could shake the awful feeling
I wish my mind would stop
Maybe I am crazy and my mind is trying to deceive me
As the ground vanishes I wonder,
will the sky be the next to fail me?
Paint abandons canvas
And my brush can't seem to start again from scratch
As I watch everything unravel,
Why should I even try to stop the collapse?
I won't
Shaking as I rest her body down
No one knows, only me
It's frightening
Sweaty hands will fail to lock the door
They'll be here soon
I wish I could keep my teeth from grinding
I wish I'd stop looking behind me
Running now will only make it worse
They'll be here soon
I wish I could shake the awful feeling
I wish my mind would stop
Maybe I am crazy and my mind is trying to deceive me
As the ground vanishes I wonder,
Will the sky be the next to fail me?
Paint abandons canvas
And my brush can't seem to start again from scratch
As I watch everything unravel,
Why should I even try to stop the collapse?
I won't
Why should I even try to stop the collapse?
Why should I even try...
There's a madman staring straight at me
Oh I know I've seen his face before
I am sure I've seen his face before
Maybe I am crazy and my mind is trying to deceive me
As the ground vanishes I wonder,
Will the sky be the next to fail me?
Paint abandons canvas
And my brush can't seem to start again from scratch
As I watch everything unravel,
Why should I even try to stop the collapse?
The Thespian.
Baby! why are you doing this to me?
Sweetheart! are those your eyes staring straight back at me?
Angel! I see your smile everywhere!
Darling! stop!
Night falls and I'm running in circles
I'm being chased by my imagination
Tell me I'm forgiven say you'll always be mine
Say that everything is over, tell me I'm fine...
No one deserves to live like this!
I touch your lips and stare in your eyes
You smile and it makes me fly
You are the reason my heart beats
Tonight it's just you and me...
Night as dark as my thoughts sets the scene for my return
Lightning nips at my heels as I race home
Wearily I stagger towards the song of her pale voice
Demons jeer my attempt to be free
Tell me I'm forgiven say you'll always be mine
Say that everything is over, tell me I'm fine...
No one deserves to live like this!
I touch your lips and stare in your eyes
You smile and it makes me fly
You are the reason my heart beats
Tonight it's just you and me...
Windows cast her gentle reflection
Her somber silhouette dances for me
Dear God, it's her!
Look at you, you miserable fool!
Get off your knees, your prayers fall upon deaf ears
Gods turned his back on you, heavens gates are shut
And now you're knocking on the devils door!
I've been expecting you for some time, sir
Allow me to introduce myself
I'm the one who pulls on all the strings, son
You're lucky I don't kill you where you stand!
This can't be real
Tonight I raise my glass
There's nothing left
For I know it's time to move on
All hope has failed
My patience will not last
I've lost my soul
Tomorrow I will be gone
And my personal favourite.
Beautiful In Blue.
Silence screams, "you're just so beautiful in blue"
Breathless stares escape your undying eyes
Are you blind to my sorrow and sympathy?
A piece of me will die with your last breath...
This will all be over soon for you are so lost inside
Glazed eyes long for the waves' embrace
Drawn to an end so near...
Far away are days when you smiled just to hear my voice
Why are you trying to run away?
My love, I can't find the words to tell you...
Drown all of your fantasies with your final broken promise
Silent angel crashes through sky, having lost sight of the stars
Regail me with your tales of lonely, bittersweet loss
Giving up comes to easy when hope is gone
I'll walk away so you can choke on your dying breath
But if you side against me, to hell with you...
Far away are days when you smiled just to hear my voice
Why are you trying to run away?
My love, I can't find the words to tell you...
The fear has stolen her heart as she wakes from her dream
Treacherous ink finds her lungs, seizing her screams
Numb hands now reach too late to take back the light
Far away are days when you smiled just to hear my voice
Why are you trying to run away?
My love, I can't find the words to tell you...
Far away are days when you smiled...
Seas cry out butchering this tragic soul without hope
Their frailty is broken and now fades into the blue...
Okay Thats All for now. Hope you guys enjoy the screamings, or not .
This is only gonna be a short post only sadly. So , Nothing much has happened lately , only the fact that is sleep like 23 hours a day!
Hurrah! Arsenal Whooped Shaktar Donetsk's ass 5-1 Woohoo! Great show of exquisite skill and class by Arsenal! hehe , All Arsenal fans pay tribute to Eduardo Da Silva! Scored against Arsenal at the Emirates for the 1st time.
Okay , lately i've just been soo lonely. Only been hanging out with Haseef. My rocker buddy! :DD . Gonna record a new single soon. From Dodo. Our 2 man band. Rawr. ALBUM IN STORES SOON!
HeheHuhu. Weelalalalololele. I dont know what to say anymore. Bored and lonely. Someone come and teman me laa :(
Btw , my cravings for the elusive Ramlies are back (Ramly+Brownies)
Disgusting huh.
This song is so stuck in my head right now. Whee. :DD
Okay! I went to Lick Hung yesterday for this carnival thingy! So many bad memories , the tortures and my silent screams through the halls still ring clear. Sigh , was i the only kid who boycotted homework? Teachers there do hate me tho. There , im like public enemy number 1. For the whole of standard 5 and 6 teachers barred me from going going to recess , mind touching the canteen. I know , i know , i was a pretty sad kid. Instead of recess, i had extra homework doing time in the "torture chamber". The room that has only 4 walls and a light , no windows , no fan , 2 rows of chairs , 1 table. Humid and pain while i did my homework reluctantly. Sigh , my primary days are scarred with teachers whacking me with giant canes. Once both my hands were whacked till bruised and swollen , making me unable to write , BUT , still i was forced to do my homework , i even begged for mercy. Ouch right. Okay , maybe i exaggerated a little too much there. But i had been whacked by a cane 100 times per hand before. Now my hands are forever immune.
Well, No Pain, No Gain.
Oh yeah , back to the carnival , was boring for me cause i only had a little time. MY SO CALLED "COUSIN" DESMOND TANG called me a paedophile. Maybe its because of my reddish hair and strutting about with a fake LV bag. Rawr. Really ? Me? Paedophile? SERIOUSLY? Well. i got a challenge to take pics with random girls which failed really badly cause of a fail photographer named LEON JIE. YES, all the blame is on you leon.
Oh , well. The only pic i took was with my new shy friend , Carmen Beh!
Oh sweet ! Please do mind the title , i know its cheesy! Wheee! KIDS! You know what time it is? Its Tang's weirdly Cheesy poems time! Rawr!
Okay , Im gonna post up some of my old works hope you guys like it! (and no , this time , the poems refers to nobody.)
Without you,
love will only be an illusion,
the thought of things you do,
i'll be sorrowed cause of everything's intrusion.
why does every step you take away from me,
the footsteps get louder,
maybe its just the thoughts of you,
that makes my heart closer.
take a step away,
watch the city in my heart burn,
all the mistakes i made,
maybe its something i'll never learn.
broken promises,
maybe its just love's deceit,
break myself,
shattered hopes fall down my feet.
i cant live without you,
why cant you stay for a while
dont go,
because all i want is to live for a while.
as days fade,
i want you to know how much you mean to me,
my angel,
i hope one day you will see.
i cherish every moment,
but sometimes i dont show,
i love you so,
That, I want you to know.
Hehe Huhu , i know so sweet rightt?? Yeah , i draw inspiration from what i see. I think of myself as a overly cheesy poet. Well, I cant get any inspiration now cause , im away from all these stuff. I'd rather keep it cool for a while. Whee. No unwanted surprises i hope.
Aww. Oh Well.
Sigh , Spm is near and im still doing crap. What a sad lazy kid i turned out to be.
Oh another lovely day for futsal! SS18 court. Definitely NOT my homeground. No stamina , cant play well. At least i scored a goal! After my horrific leg injury, caused by myself ( and maybe abit of nazrin's fault) OH WELL. I actually improved ALOT after getting injured, now i feel that my leg seems a little of a tad faster , but my reactions still sucks.
Went for a little pool and dota at Asia Cafe too.
Cant wait for the futsal tournament this Sunday!
Finally solved some of my financial problems.
I crave for green tea ice cream and only green tea ice cream. I HATE OTHER FLAVOURS . GIMME GREEN TEA! (good for my complexion)
And now , i have this lovely song. Love the lyrics so much . So meaningful
I swear that you don't have to go, I thought we could wait for the fireworks I thought we could wait for the snow To wash over Georgia and kill the hurt I thought I could live in your arms and spend every moment I had with you Stay up all night with the stars Confess all the faith that I had in you (I had in you)
Too late, I'm sure, and lonely Another night, another dream wasted on you Just be here now, against me You know the words, so sing along for me baby For Heaven's sake, I know you're sorry, but you wont stop crying This anniversary may never be the same Inside I hope you know I'm dying, with my heart beside me, in shattered pieces that, may never be replaced And if I died right now, you'd never be the same
I thought with a month of apart Together would find us an opening And moonlight would provide the spark And that I would stumble across your key Or break down the door to your heart Forever could see us, not you and me And you'd help me out of the dark And I give my heart as an offering (An offering)
Too late, I'm sure, and lonely Another night, another dream wasted on you Just be, here now Against me You know the words, so sing along for me baby For Heaven's sake, I know you're sorry, but you wont stop crying This anniversary may never be the same Inside I hope you know I'm dying, with my heart beside me, In shattered pieces that, may never be replaced And if I died right now, you'd never be the same
And I... Will always... Remember you as, you are right now to me And I... Will always... Remember you now, remember you now... Oh... So sleep alone tonight With no one here just by your side Sleep alone tonight How does he feel? How does he kiss? How does he taste while he's on your lips? I can't forget you I know you want me to want you, I want to But I can't forget you So when this is over, don't blow your composure, baby I can't forget you I know you want me to want you, I want to But I can't forget you So when this is over don't blow your composure, baby I can't forget you... I know you want me to want you, I want to...
Lovely Song! I fell in love with the song immediately !
Lala, i know they look emo , but still! RAWR.
Fearless, sleepless under stars Love pulls us back into our hearts Everlasting love ripped us apart How can we fix our broken hearts?
Oh no, don't go my shooting star These flashbacks drag me to the start This time we've pulled our hearts apart How can we fix our broken hearts?
Today's the day to take away our hearts To find a way to make a change in love Tonight's the night to wipe away our scars To find a way to fix our broken hearts
How can it be this hard? Far away is just too far For my broken heart (my broken heart) So wake up Sleeping Beauty I'll love you today and kill you tomorrow (I kill you)
How can it be this hard? Far away is just too far For my broken heart (my broken heart) So wake up Sleeping Beauty I'll love you today and kill you
Away from hope, so close to hate Away from love, away from fate Away from hope, so close to hate Away from love, away from fate
How can it be this hard? Far away is just too far For my broken heart (my broken heart) So wake up Sleeping Beauty I'll love you today and kill you tomorrow (I kill you)
How can it be this hard? Far away is just too far For my broken heart (my broken heart) So wake up Sleeping Beauty I'll love you today and kill you tomorrow.
Oh well. Another day passes so quickly. How i wish it was spm already. Cant wait for the freedom and happiness that awaits me on the otherside of the rainbow. Sigh , restlessness is kicking in. By the way. Im gonna do foundation in taylor's next year. Foundation in business. Not something i wanted , but oh well. Parents want me to do it. After that im off ot London. But all i want is to stay in Malaysia , land of nasi lemak and roti canai. Gorge on mamak food until late nights where there is ramly burgers to keep me company. Sweet! Im afraid when i come back from London i'll gain the english accent. Where i would speak like this. "Would you like a cup of tea?" or " Would you like sugar to that coffee?". Rawr.
Oh well. I cant wait for prom . Got a lovely date :P. And after prom. MY BIRTHDAY AFTERPARTY! RAWR. Everone and anyone is invited . I think it would most slightly be at ChillOut at Subang Parade cause its like 5 mins walk from Empire? Much much easier for people instead of MOS or Mist. Lalala.
Okay , i saw this super imba lyrics. Damn sweet. Okay , only korean fans would understand this tho. Unfortunately , im not one but i still got to know it thru someone. Enjoy!
Yeah, I thought I wouldn't be able to live even one day without you But somehow I managed to live on (longer) than I thought You don't answer anything as I cry out "I miss you" I hope for a vain expectation but now it's useless
What is it about that person next to you, did he make you cry? Dear can you even see me, did you forget completely? I am worried, I feel anxiety because I can't get close nor try to talk to you I spend long nights by myself, erasing my thoughts a thousand times
Don't look back and leave Don't find me again and live Because I have no regrets from loving you, take only the good memories I can bear it in some way I can stand in some way You should be happy if you are like this I become dull day by day
If we pass by each other on the street Act like you didn't see me and go the way you were walking to If you keep thinking about our past memories I might go look for you secretly Always be happy with him, I won't ever get a different mind Even smallest regret won't be left out ever Please live well as if I should feel jealous You should always be like that bright sky, like that white cloud Yes, you should always smile like that as if nothing happened
I hope your heart feels relieved Please forget about me and live Those tears will dry completely As time passes by It would've hurt less if we didn't meet at all Hope you will bury our promise of being together forever baby I pray for you .
IM GONNA BE THERE SOON! LONDON! How beautiful the place is. (:
Im gonna be a super smexy Businessman one day. Watch out world. Cause im gonna cause the 4th economic meltdown. THE GREAT DEPRESSION IS COMING AGAIN CAUSE OF ME! Rawr :D
Okay. Recap of the last two days. 1 Word. Exciting! :D . Friday i went for paintball with nazrin , teksoon , chan tong , soh , leon jie , alvin wong , alvin teoh , donson and hong joo. Painful experience. Got shot 7 times , still blue black. Aftert hat went for snowflakes which was surprisingly tasty for TAIWANESE dessert. eeyer , taiwanese. then we went for pool . since when alvin wong got so good! ZZ. Imba. okay. This is getting boring. Pics first , then we continue to maybe something thats more interesting ( for those people who likes all my emo stufff lol! )
I know i've gained weight la ZZ. DONT REMIND ME , IM WORKING ON IT!
Okay lets go to the emo part. ZZ. hate it. Okay , time for a confession.
I admit it , i've been conspiring and scheming against you. I wished and hopeed that you two wouldnt work out. Maybe what vivien said was right. Maybe i just wanted revenge , maybe i didnt have the guts to admit that i havent let go. I realised that i am so pathetic. I wished i hoped that you both would fail but it didnt happen. Now i see. That you both are so happy together . And nothing i can do can tear you guys apart. Well jealousy could be the end of me.
Okay, few days ago. I had a dream. I'd dreamed that i would live miserably with all those things kept inside of mr , affecting my future, my family. So now, i have to say this. Im sick and tired of planning, im sick and tired of scheming , im sick of keeping all those stuff locked inside of me. I told myself. That i should just let it go and support you guys instead. I've got my own problems to worry about. Ugh. Beautiful as you are, the chase is not worth the price. Its better that distances are kept and boundaries in check. The term friends would do fine.
In alvin wong's words : even though i dont talk to you nowadays , my care for you still lives. I know kinda corny , but i really like it (:
Im not being mean. Im just being honest.
We drive tonight, And you are by my side. We're talking about our lives, Like we've known each other forever. The time flies by, With the sound of your voice. Its close to paradise, With the end surely near. And if i could only stop the car And hold onto you, And never let go I'll never let go As we round the corner To your house You turned to me and said, "i'll be going through withdrawal of you For this one night we have spent." And, i want to speak these words But i guess i'll just bite my tongue, And accept "someday, somehow" As the words that we'll hang from.
And i , i don't want to speak these words. cause i , i don't want to make things any worse.
Why does tonight, have to end? Why don't we hit restart, And pause it at our favorite parts. We'll skip the goodbyes. If i had it my way, I'd turn the car around and runaway, Just you and i.
TigerLily ♥
Oh. Enough of the emo-ness. Lets be happy and fly away like butterflies :D !
Special note for a certain friend of mine: Be brave, be strong. Wait , you dont have to , cause i know you are. (:
Sigh , i really wanna know the antidote to what im facing now. Okay maybe i know it (money) but i doubt i can get it. Financial problems are killing me. I cant believe instead of studying my moral for my trials now , im watching an Arsenal game against Partizan Belgrade.
Im sorry , but i really forgot the sound of your voice already. I miss the times. But you're disappeared from my live 3months ago. No longer do you come and find me like you always do. Well, i really do miss the times , but whats past is past. I'll go down in your history as a person who, liked you. And you'll go down in my history as the person who rejected me. Haha. Finding humour in discomfort.
And (another person) , im sorry i havent been talking to you. Im just so shy around you and i feel that sense of pressure when i wanna try to talk to you. You're always around people, that makes situations worse! haha. woops. Just dont get me wrong , i really wanna talk to you. I just need to find the courage and way how to talk to you. (dont worry, i've asked for help) :PP
Oh , im craving for pasta!! Bolognese , Fettucini , Carbonaro , YOU NAME IT! Im soooo hngryyy. Hehe.
MMMMMM!!!!
Oh! Me and my good friend Haseef are doing song covers. We're hoping to release an album soon! Dont worry , we're not doing anything thats heavy metal or screamo or whatever. We're actually doing something light like Vanessa Carlton and Secondhand Serenade. Haha. Look out for us soon. We're called Dodo , Birdshit and I Cant Fly.
Okay, i've been absent from blogging for so long that i cant remember when was the last time i blogged. This will be my most meaningful post i've ever done.
Imma Describe Love.
Love [ Love is the emotion of strong affection and personal attachment.[1] ] Love, sigh. How long has it eluded mankind's mind. The explanation above doesnt explain it all right? Okay, so , im gonna give you my view on this elusive emotion.
Nowadays, youths everywhere always complain about their "love" life on facebook.[okay i sound like a hypocrite]They say , Love Hurts , Love Sucks , Love is nothing but a lie. Love this , love that. Everything about this 'love' is so bad and negative. BUT LET ME TELL YOU SOMETHING ABOUT LOVE. LOVE CERTAINLY DOES NOT SUCK! Love doesnt hurt people , only people HURT people. Love is definitely NOT a lie , people just misunderstood it. Love never cause pain, only people do. Most of all, Love Doesnt Walk Away, People Do. I just dont understand why do people condemn love. If it werent for love , we all defintely would cease to exist.
Okay. Let me tell you something about TRUE LOVE. Many teenagers MISUNDERSTAND puppy love for true love. We do not understand the true meaning yet. You can tell your girlfriend or boyfriend that you love him/her. You can tell that to them everyday. You can tell them you love them more than anything else. You can tell them your love for them is endless and forever. But it all comes down to this. No matter how much your mouth moves. No matter how much saliva you used up. Its still puppy love. You can see in 3 months or so they break up , and then rant about their sucky "love"life on facebook or twitter.
TRUE LOVE. I'll tell you what i consider true love. And no , itISNT sex. True love is when you hug your parents. Its when you share a family moment , with your parents and siblings. Its when a parent looks into their newborn's eyes for the 1st time. Its when you look into your spouse's eyes and say meaningfully and confidently , When you fall I'll catch you. When you cry I'll wipe away your tears. When you're scared I'll chase away all your fears. Or Religious Love [The devotion of a person in his/her religion] . Many of us dont understand. True love is unconditional. You love no matter what the person done , you do not want anything back in True love. No, Nothing. Okay , people at our age would definitely want your partners to love you back right? Would you stay with him / her when he/she cheats on you? Or he/she went to have sex with your bestfriend to get revenge? WOULD YOU? Maybe, in rare cases. Or , I guess not.
Many people mistaken Mistaken Lust or Obsession for True Love.Well , i speak from personal experience. Well, I've learned from this hurtful experience. Lust and obsession kills. You'll just ended up getting hurt and then realizing what you have missed out. LIFE. Some idiots even go to some extent that they threatened with suicide. Stupidity.
Okay, Why am i so random? Doing this article? Well, i realised everything when i gave my parents a hug, A first hug in a LONG, LONNG time. And i shared a light moment with my brothers. I've been so stupid , I've been so ignorant. But now i know. For our age , family is the most important thing to us. Notice the little details and you'll understand. The true meaning. It cant be really explained , but it can be felt. :)
Found this in my brother's phone. The youngest one.
Ah, back when everything was so much simpler. My 1st best friend , Goh Chen Shen. I'm the one on the right. Wheeeeee :DD
Me and my cute little cousin! :D
Me and my family. Sorry the pic is so blur , cant find the camera memory card.
"Trust to take the right to leave me Waiting under dark clouds for the rain Praying lightning strikes a change As history gets lost and As I took that final breath I felt alive Meeting god to stand in line, Never alone"
Thats all for now! Goodnight Sweet Dreams , World.
Hey hey hey! i know i've been absent for a while , unlike my earlier blogging days which i posted everyhting i was thinking , well that time was my emo 'period' so yeah , Now i'm all better and there aint no emo stuff to post anymore , which leads to lack of interesting stuff to blog anymore :( . Oh well ! At least now imma blog some happy stuff ! :D .
Okay , last saturday i went to xiu ming's sweet 16 ! woohoo! mine aint as cool as hers cause the only one celebrating with me at that time was xiuming , yeah how ironic haha ! So ! here are some pics which i stole from her! hehehe >:)
Me and Birthday girl !
Me and Juls !
The Sri Kl + Su People ! Well , the only people i was hanging out at the party was Leanna , Alvin ,Henry ,David ,Terence and Jefferey. Well ,i got mistaken for Jarald , now thats just embarassing. ZZ. Oh well Thats all for now! :D
Ps. I found this sexy poem!
When I think of you, you fill my mind , There’s no more thinking room I find. I’ve never had such thoughts before , I’m lost in you, whom I adore. I think no more of mundane things , Like common ...pleasures that living brings. I just think of you, and I’m filled with dreams , To keep your love fills all my schemes.
Wide awake, my mistake So predictable You were fake, I was great Nothing personal
I'm walking Who's laughing now? (Who's laughing, who's laughing now?) I'm wasted, wasting time You talk for hours But you're wasting lines A pretty face but the chase Ain't worth the prize
I'm gonna break your little heart Watch you take the fall Laughing all the way to the hospital 'Cause there's nothing surgery can do When I break your little heart in two I'm gonna break your little heart in two
Party queen, cause a scene So ridiculous Little dress, maybe less So conspicuous
You're falling Who's crashing now? (Who's crashing, who's crashing now?) I'm wasted, wasting time I'm moving on But you're left behind A pretty face with the chace Ain't worth the price
I'm gonna break your little heart Watch you take the fall Laughing all the way to the hospital 'Cause there's nothing surgery can do I'm gonna break your little heart Show you to the door Sew yourself shut Now you're begging for more 'Cause there's nothing surgery can do When I break your little heart in two
Don't be so sentimental, no This is love is accidental, so Give it up This was never meant to be More than a memory for you
I'm gonna break your little heart Watch you take the fall Laughing all the way to the hospital 'Cause there's nothing surgery can do (When I break your little heart in two) I'm gonna break your little heart Show you to the door Sew yourself shut Now you're begging for more 'Cause there's nothing surgery can do When I break your little heart in two
I love Burgers , I love Fries , I love anything that doesnt come with Pies. ♥ . I love thinking of stuff like that , makes me real happy. So, there's nothing much lately , only emo stuff and more emo stuff which i post less already. Went out with Naz ,Ying , Teoh and Daph this afternoon , watched TWILIGHT ECLIPSE! omg , i cant believe it , i actually liked that show , i thought it would be sickenning at 1st but it became quiet pleasent after the 1st 15 mins. okay im kinda tired already and all i wanna do is pop into bed and dream about you. ;P . Oh wells , gotta wake up early to go to Seafield's Carnival Day. Lots of Love , Goodnight.
Bury all your secrets in my skin Come away with innocence and leave me with my sins The air around me still feels like a cage And love is just a camouflage for what resembles rage again
So if you love me let me go And run away before I know My heart is just too dark to care I can’t destroy what isn’t there
Deliver me into my fate If I’m alone I cannot hate I don’t deserve to have you Ooh, my smile was taken long ago If I can change I hope I never know
I still press your letters to my lips And cherish them in parts of me that savor every kiss I couldn’t face a life without your lights But all of that was ripped apart when you refused to fight So save your breath, I will not care I think I made it very clear You couldn’t hate enough to love Is that supposed to be enough?
I only wish you weren’t my friend Then I could hurt you in the end I never claimed to be a saint Ooh, my own was banished long ago It took the death of hope to let you go
So break yourself against my stones And spit your pity in my soul You never needed any help You sold me out to save yourself
And I won’t listen to your shame You ran away, you’re all the same Angels lie to keep control Ooh, my love was punished long ago If you still care don’t ever let me know..
Sorry for the super super uber long break , but been really really busy lately. Life's been sexy lately. Embarassment at talent quest though. TOTAL EMBARASSMENT. SORRY AMER! practised like no tomoorow but failed like no tomorrow also. SHAMED! :'( . PEOPLE WHO KNOW WHAT HAPPENED! IM NOT A HEAVY ONE OKAY. IM ONLY DO 2 A DAY! :'(
Me practicing at school. So sexy right my baby Charlotte? :DD
So. Yeah. I've been happy lately, not much downs , mostly ups.
ROCKER!
Alvin Teoh and John Chew are the really really weird drivers.
My head can bang when they drive.
WHY NOBODY SUPPORT ME DURING TALENT QUEST? I only see Azhad and gang cheering , and thanks for the guitar bag Nehe. SHOULD HAVE PUT MY NAME IN THAT SONG.
Lalala.
I DYED MY HAIR RED BUT FADED IN 2 WEEKS. Some feeder colour.
I am gonna play the game i hate soon (dota) so im not gonna elaborate much about the past 2 weeks. So.. GOOD DAY FOR NOW! Lots of Love. :DD
Another night , another dream wasted on you. Not really a waste. I dont know how to explain it. But i just cant seem to understand it. Confusing. Painful. But somehow i dont feel the pressure anymore , im immune to this pain. I've broken myself countless times , yet i still feel the urge to do it. I wished i knew what state i am in , because i do not have a clue. Sigh , I wished i'd understood all of this. I wished i can escape this. But we all know that isnt gonna happen.
Dear Heart, So black and I know that you're broken. From words that she has never spoken. So now our lives are laced with a tragedy. We're drifting, dreamlessly, sleeping forever. I won't fall for pretty girls any more.
I can't breathe when she speaks. She tells me I'm not special. She promised lines full of lies and a thousand roses.
Dear love, My love I... I never knew eyes could cut like knives. What a tragedy. The blood on your dirty sleeve is drying and can't be washed away. I've fallen on my knees too often. If the only peace I can have is crying over your shattered picture. I'll pick it up off the ground and sleep with the broken glass.
I can't breathe when she speaks. She tells me I'm not special. She promised lines full of lies and a thousand roses. Our lives are laced with tragedy, a tragedy. Her eyes are filled with lies.
Heart prepare to shatter. I am nothing special... Heart prepare to shatter. Her eyes are filled with lies...
I can't breathe when she speaks. She tells me I'm not special. She promised lines full of lies and a thousand roses. Our lives are laced with tragedy, a tragedy. Her eyes are filled with lies.
She never knew… She was my only one, my only one. And now I'll never love again.
Today was so freaking ass boring man! Wanted to get out of the house , but nobody teman me , OH WELLS. Okay i practically dota-ed my heart out today. Lalalala. I so proud i only ate 2 meals today. Mmhmm. Some new diet plans! Rawr-ness!
Okay been searching for meaningful song lyrics these days. And i got this one. Really , really good.
Worth it? , By Sienna Skies
Sometimes we like to act with our actions before words With something to fight against Fight Against But in the end we have to ask Was it something to fight against? Fight Against
Sometimes you see the light You see straight through the fight and you know whats right And you know whats right. But then again sometimes its always dark and then we have to ask "Was it really worth it?"
And every time we fight for whats wrong and right We have to open up our eyes and see whats really worth it And every time we die for something that we fight Why do we live and lie for something really worth it?
Is it really worth it?
Only time will tell if we made the choice if this was worth it? And then the lies will show that this all was right And we were left to fight
And every time we fight for whats wrong and right We have to open up our eyes and see whats really worth it And every time we die for something that we fight Why do we live and lie for something really worth it? And every time we fight for whats wrong and right We have to open up our eyes and see whats really worth it And every time we die for something that we fight Why do we live and lie for something really worth it?
Take my hand and we will fight for something We will make sure it worth something Will You stand by By my side? Will We Fight? We will fight! We will fight forever if we believe this is worth it Will we fight? If We Believe We will fight This is worth it We will have no regrets Have no regrets
They got the best shits man , really respect them , they and their trancecore/ techno metal stuff. Love em.
Cant wait for toy story tomorrow though! yeah! mmhmm! yeah! rawr!
And also , Not forgetting! HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUONGYI!
My macha since std 3 i think. Now he's kinda weird calling me wife BUT STILL!
JIN WEI TOO! I DIDNT FORGET! Known him for a long time too , since std 2 i think :D!
You guys rock :D
Lalalala! Thats all for now . Good Night World . *kisses*
Sorry about the long pause . Penang was fun. Yeah! I was like going on 5 meals a day . Rawr! Some Char Koay Teow and Laksa . Mmhmm! Went to a place called Tanjung Tualang too! Ate some famouse seafood restaurant. Not too bad. :D
Life's been down lately though. Alot of complications came my way. And im trying to give my lall to solve every single one of them. I dont know why this things are happening but, yeah. Life what , WHAT TO DO? Threw shit at me , got some flowers back , now shits are puring again . Haha , some metaphors! :DD
I havent been posting any emo stuff lately , so here comes the emo that has been gone so long! LET IT POUR!
Okay , it starts with...
Here's a story about a guy (Guy A). This guy met this girl. Little did he know would become a big part of his life. Didnt like her at first. Thought she was like any other stuck up girl. This guy wanted to stay away , his friends all tell him so. HE didnt , he kept on talking and getting to know this girl. And yeah , he proved himself wrong , this girl wasnt no stuck up girl , she was an angel. He couldnt believe he could ever meet someone like her. He was ecstatic. He was a lonely guy. His friends were all working that time , but he got fired so he was alone . His friends were kinda busy so he did not go to bother them. So everyday he would look for her name on msn and talk to her instead. He felt a lot less lonely. He felt happy that someone like her would actually talk to him and accompany him.
Weeks past and the guy started falling for her. He would long for her texts everyday , he would think of her everyday befoer going off to sleep and she would appear in his mind first thing in the morning. Special she was to him , very special. Because he hasnt known anyone who would ever treat him the same way she did. She made him feel loved and needed. Something really rare for him , because outside of the family , he doesnt know anyone that would do the same. But his friends warned him , saying that this will only end in tears. They warned him to never fall for her , but their words came a little too late. He was already in love. Everyday , his aim is to make her smile. Her loved her smile. Sweet like an angel's they were to him. He loved it when she laughed and smiled. Because. He loved it when she was happy. And he told himself that he would do everything to keep it that way. A smile from her would make his day.
Months later. Another guy came along (Guy B) . So , well. He was a friend of Guy A. Guy A introduced him to her. Little did he know Guy B would fall for her. From that moment on , everything changed.
So , Guy A was as usual , trying everything to keep her smile going everyday. He started to love her more than anybody else. Well , he was just feeling the bliss of love because he doenst feel it often. He enjoyed every single bit of it. But , little by little , Guy B was getting closer and closer to her. Guy A knws but he did not stop it because he made her happy too , and above all else, Guy A wants her to be happy.
Guy A. He was tired, but he loved her . So , he still tried everything to be there for her for every second. He would run to her house just to give give her medicine because she had sore throat. He would do anything for her. (To me now , this guy was an idiot. Blinded by false promises of love.)
But soon, Guy B was getting closer by the minute . He was good. Guy A was jealous of course. Silently jealous. But still , he does not speak a word. He still believed his patience would pay off. ( WHAT A FOOL) .
Day by day , he grows weary. He knew he cant take the pain , but he still went on. He took everything in. He would look at them hugging from afar , while he waited for his , which never came. He would take long looks. He stand , stare and wait. He got hurt pretty badly , but he didnt care. His reason? Because he was able to see her happy. Above all else , he still wanted her to be happy , regardless of what pain he felt.
Then , the worst month came, She came to tell Guy A that she has fallen for Guy B. He was lost , his heart stopped. He did not know what to do. He wanted a way , but he couldnt find any, he was at a total lost. But he kept going. He didnt care , he believed he could still stand a chance. He still loved her. HE gave his all to keep her there.
Soon , he couldnt stand the pain any longer. He made a decision that , his patience cant win her heart because it was already been won. He gave up. He decided things would go on better without him anymore.
The End.
Rawr.
Ps. That Guy A is me. (:
Its a wonder, i dont mind playing guitar to a crowd, but when i try i sing and play to you , i cant seem to do anything. (:
I was so freaking bored at home that i went out for this movie marathon yesterday, well i watched prince of persia and shrek. Both didnt really live up to my expectations. Prince of persia was rather bleak and shrek just lacked that 'comedy' factor. Sigh , i feel as lonely as ever. Im glad that nazrin and jeremy came. Great company :) .
Well today , woke up at 7.30 and went to play some futsal. I feel great as im feeling my legs again. ITs more flexible now , played with the usual sigma guys against the delta dudes + jack sen. Lawrence ,gilbert and nehe came later. Ate brunch at the HAJI BISTRO. Went back for more futsal. THEN WENT BACK TO HAJI BISTRO. and sat with soh , nehe ,lawrence , michael toh , kenneth , charissa , and some cheerleading people. My leg cramped during futsal. Epic, took lawrence 15 mins of continous pushing to ease the pain. Damn. Leon Jie got some death metal taste!. THEN I HAD THE MOST DISGUSTING LUNCH EVER. I ATE MURTABAK BAREHANDED ON THE BENCH. IT LOOKED LIKE DOG POOP! WARM DOG POOP! IT TASTES LIKE HEAVEN THO! :DDD
LIKE EWW RIGHT?!! TASTES GODLY!
haha , thats all for tonight! Signing off. Murtabak man! :D
Had some serious dejavu just now. LIKE SERIOUS. Okay nevermind. I played football finally! Not even 5 mins people tackled my knee already! Walao wan kill me meh? haha . OH wells. Im happy im back on the field ! Oh i need painkillers for my leg again! DAMNED! haha oh well! Ate dinner at some chinese restaurant at ss 18. I think im falling for oldies again. Time to clear out some heavy metal songs. Cookies RULE! Wells. Nothing much to talk about. HOLIDAYS IS BORING! I NEED SOMETHING FOR ME TO DO BEFORE I DIE OF BOREDOM! Signing off , Goodnight! :D
Okay today was fine again i guess. Better by the minute. Went to TJ Haus is ss18 for dinner. HAD LAMB. YUM YUM. hahaa nothing much happened today , so imma keep it short and sweet. Goodnight guys. Imma go dota sumore. or chat or fb , LIKE WHATEVER , Oh bitchy me :P . Wells. GOODNIGHT AGAIN! :DD
Jeremy introduced to me this really really nice and meaningful song called October & April by The Rasmus and SOME LADY.
October & April.
She was like April sky Sun rise in her eyes Child of light Shining star Fire in her heart Bright as day Melting snow Breaking through the chill October and April
He was like frozen sky In October night Darkest cloud Endless storm Raining from his heart Coldest snow Deepest thrill Tearing down his will October and April
Like hate and love World's apart This fatal love was like poison Right from the start Like light and dark World's apart this fatal love was like poison Right from the start
We were like loaded guns Sacrificed our lives
We were like love undone Craving to entwine
Fatal torch Final thrill Love was bound to kill October and April
Like hate and love World's apart This fatal love was like poison Right from the start Like light and dark World's apart this fatal love was like poison Right from the start
Hate and love World's apart This fatal love was like poison Right from the start Light and dark World's apart This fatal love was like poison Right from the start
Okay. I have decided that its destined to be. What you expect? I cant lay around emo and staring at the ceiling forever man. Sure there are emo periods here and there but well, I accepted the face that things will never be the same or what i hoped will never be. Yes, never. Things have changed and you've made your decision and i accpet it. I respect your decision. And yeah. There's still a special place in my heart for you , but yeah. This person makes you way happier and im happy that you're happy. Hate it when it hurts , but im kinda immune now already. All i can do , the best i can do is smile. Finally , I am . I am , immune to the pain , paste a smile on my face and take a walk 3 o clock in the morning with screamo songs blasting into my ears. Suddenly i love this song haru haru by big bang. Not my type of song but yeah. Its nice :D .
Went to Empire again omg. and Parade again omg. IM SICK OF PARADE ALREADY!! ZZ. What a place. Boring and FAGGISH! haha. Wells. I went with Alvin Teoh tho. The big sized dude. :D . Got some ice cream there. Haha. ICE CREAM RULEZ! I sound so fagggy!! EMPIRE SO SMALL. WHAT SO NICE ABOUT IT? :X . Oh Well.
.. CARRRIIIOONN!!! YOU TEAR ME FROM THE INSDE OUT YEAH~!!
Gimme the beat boys and free my soul , i wanna get lost in your rock and roll and drift away
Yes my heart beats for you as you're still the one , you still might be the one im chasing after. I wonder will you remember me forever? Wait , not forever , ever the same , and always will be might be a better word to put it.
Baby! why are you doing this to me? Sweetheart! are those your eyes staring straight back at me? Angel! I see your smile everywhere! Darling! stop!
Night falls and Im running in circles Im being chased by my imagination
Tell me Im forgiven say youll always be mine Say that everything is over, tell me Im fine... No one deserves to live like this!
I touch your lips and stare in your eyes You smile and it makes me fly You are the reason my heart beats Tonight it's just you and me...
Night as dark as my thoughts Sets the scene for my return Lightning nips at my heels As I race home Wearily I stagger Towards the song of her pale voice Demons jeer my attempt To be free
Tell me Im forgiven say youll always be mine Say that everything is over, tell me Im fine... No one deserves to live like this!
I touch your lips and stare in your eyes You smile and it makes me fly You are the reason my heart beats Tonight its just you and me...
Windows cast her gentle reflection Her somber silhouette dances for me
Look at you, you miserable fool! Get off your knees, your prayers fall upon deaf ears Gods turned his back on you, heavens gates are shut And now youre knocking on the Devils door!
Ive been expecting you for some time, sir Allow me to introduce myself Im the one who pulls on all the strings, son Youre lucky I dont kill you where you stand! Dear God, it's her!
Tonight I raise my glass This cant be real For I know its time to move on a My patience will not last All hope has failed. Ive lost my soul. Tomorrow I will be gone.
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