I know i've gained weight la ZZ. DONT REMIND ME , IM WORKING ON IT!
Okay lets go to the emo part. ZZ. hate it. Okay , time for a confession.
I admit it , i've been conspiring and scheming against you. I wished and hopeed that you two wouldnt work out. Maybe what vivien said was right. Maybe i just wanted revenge , maybe i didnt have the guts to admit that i havent let go. I realised that i am so pathetic. I wished i hoped that you both would fail but it didnt happen. Now i see. That you both are so happy together . And nothing i can do can tear you guys apart. Well jealousy could be the end of me.
Okay, few days ago. I had a dream. I'd dreamed that i would live miserably with all those things kept inside of mr , affecting my future, my family. So now, i have to say this. Im sick and tired of planning, im sick and tired of scheming , im sick of keeping all those stuff locked inside of me. I told myself. That i should just let it go and support you guys instead. I've got my own problems to worry about. Ugh. Beautiful as you are, the chase is not worth the price. Its better that distances are kept and boundaries in check. The term friends would do fine.
In alvin wong's words : even though i dont talk to you nowadays , my care for you still lives. I know kinda corny , but i really like it (:
Im not being mean. Im just being honest.
We drive tonight,
And you are by my side.
We're talking about our lives,
Like we've known each other forever.
The time flies by,
With the sound of your voice.
Its close to paradise,
With the end surely near.
And if i could only stop the car
And hold onto you,
And never let go
I'll never let go
As we round the corner
To your house
You turned to me and said,
"i'll be going through withdrawal of you
For this one night we have spent."
And, i want to speak these words
But i guess i'll just bite my tongue,
And accept "someday, somehow"
As the words that we'll hang from.
And i , i don't want to speak these words.
cause i , i don't want to make things any worse.
Why does tonight, have to end?
Why don't we hit restart,
And pause it at our favorite parts.
We'll skip the goodbyes.
If i had it my way,
I'd turn the car around and runaway,
Just you and i.
TigerLily ♥
Oh. Enough of the emo-ness. Lets be happy and fly away like butterflies :D !
Special note for a certain friend of mine: Be brave, be strong. Wait , you dont have to , cause i know you are. (:
Rawr.
