Hey hey hey! i know i've been absent for a while , unlike my earlier blogging days which i posted everyhting i was thinking , well that time was my emo 'period' so yeah , Now i'm all better and there aint no emo stuff to post anymore , which leads to lack of interesting stuff to blog anymore :( . Oh well ! At least now imma blog some happy stuff ! :D .
Okay , last saturday i went to xiu ming's sweet 16 ! woohoo! mine aint as cool as hers cause the only one celebrating with me at that time was xiuming , yeah how ironic haha ! So ! here are some pics which i stole from her! hehehe >:)
Me and Birthday girl !
Me and Juls !
The Sri Kl + Su People ! Well , the only people i was hanging out at the party was Leanna , Alvin ,Henry ,David ,Terence and Jefferey. Well ,i got mistaken for Jarald , now thats just embarassing. ZZ. Oh well Thats all for now! :D
Ps. I found this sexy poem!
When I think of you, you fill my mind , There’s no more thinking room I find. I’ve never had such thoughts before , I’m lost in you, whom I adore. I think no more of mundane things , Like common ...pleasures that living brings. I just think of you, and I’m filled with dreams , To keep your love fills all my schemes.
Wide awake, my mistake So predictable You were fake, I was great Nothing personal
I'm walking Who's laughing now? (Who's laughing, who's laughing now?) I'm wasted, wasting time You talk for hours But you're wasting lines A pretty face but the chase Ain't worth the prize
I'm gonna break your little heart Watch you take the fall Laughing all the way to the hospital 'Cause there's nothing surgery can do When I break your little heart in two I'm gonna break your little heart in two
Party queen, cause a scene So ridiculous Little dress, maybe less So conspicuous
You're falling Who's crashing now? (Who's crashing, who's crashing now?) I'm wasted, wasting time I'm moving on But you're left behind A pretty face with the chace Ain't worth the price
I'm gonna break your little heart Watch you take the fall Laughing all the way to the hospital 'Cause there's nothing surgery can do I'm gonna break your little heart Show you to the door Sew yourself shut Now you're begging for more 'Cause there's nothing surgery can do When I break your little heart in two
Don't be so sentimental, no This is love is accidental, so Give it up This was never meant to be More than a memory for you
I'm gonna break your little heart Watch you take the fall Laughing all the way to the hospital 'Cause there's nothing surgery can do (When I break your little heart in two) I'm gonna break your little heart Show you to the door Sew yourself shut Now you're begging for more 'Cause there's nothing surgery can do When I break your little heart in two
I love Burgers , I love Fries , I love anything that doesnt come with Pies. ♥ . I love thinking of stuff like that , makes me real happy. So, there's nothing much lately , only emo stuff and more emo stuff which i post less already. Went out with Naz ,Ying , Teoh and Daph this afternoon , watched TWILIGHT ECLIPSE! omg , i cant believe it , i actually liked that show , i thought it would be sickenning at 1st but it became quiet pleasent after the 1st 15 mins. okay im kinda tired already and all i wanna do is pop into bed and dream about you. ;P . Oh wells , gotta wake up early to go to Seafield's Carnival Day. Lots of Love , Goodnight.
Bury all your secrets in my skin Come away with innocence and leave me with my sins The air around me still feels like a cage And love is just a camouflage for what resembles rage again
So if you love me let me go And run away before I know My heart is just too dark to care I can’t destroy what isn’t there
Deliver me into my fate If I’m alone I cannot hate I don’t deserve to have you Ooh, my smile was taken long ago If I can change I hope I never know
I still press your letters to my lips And cherish them in parts of me that savor every kiss I couldn’t face a life without your lights But all of that was ripped apart when you refused to fight So save your breath, I will not care I think I made it very clear You couldn’t hate enough to love Is that supposed to be enough?
I only wish you weren’t my friend Then I could hurt you in the end I never claimed to be a saint Ooh, my own was banished long ago It took the death of hope to let you go
So break yourself against my stones And spit your pity in my soul You never needed any help You sold me out to save yourself
And I won’t listen to your shame You ran away, you’re all the same Angels lie to keep control Ooh, my love was punished long ago If you still care don’t ever let me know..
Sorry for the super super uber long break , but been really really busy lately. Life's been sexy lately. Embarassment at talent quest though. TOTAL EMBARASSMENT. SORRY AMER! practised like no tomoorow but failed like no tomorrow also. SHAMED! :'( . PEOPLE WHO KNOW WHAT HAPPENED! IM NOT A HEAVY ONE OKAY. IM ONLY DO 2 A DAY! :'(
Me practicing at school. So sexy right my baby Charlotte? :DD
So. Yeah. I've been happy lately, not much downs , mostly ups.
ROCKER!
Alvin Teoh and John Chew are the really really weird drivers.
My head can bang when they drive.
WHY NOBODY SUPPORT ME DURING TALENT QUEST? I only see Azhad and gang cheering , and thanks for the guitar bag Nehe. SHOULD HAVE PUT MY NAME IN THAT SONG.
Lalala.
I DYED MY HAIR RED BUT FADED IN 2 WEEKS. Some feeder colour.
I am gonna play the game i hate soon (dota) so im not gonna elaborate much about the past 2 weeks. So.. GOOD DAY FOR NOW! Lots of Love. :DD
Another night , another dream wasted on you. Not really a waste. I dont know how to explain it. But i just cant seem to understand it. Confusing. Painful. But somehow i dont feel the pressure anymore , im immune to this pain. I've broken myself countless times , yet i still feel the urge to do it. I wished i knew what state i am in , because i do not have a clue. Sigh , I wished i'd understood all of this. I wished i can escape this. But we all know that isnt gonna happen.
Dear Heart, So black and I know that you're broken. From words that she has never spoken. So now our lives are laced with a tragedy. We're drifting, dreamlessly, sleeping forever. I won't fall for pretty girls any more.
I can't breathe when she speaks. She tells me I'm not special. She promised lines full of lies and a thousand roses.
Dear love, My love I... I never knew eyes could cut like knives. What a tragedy. The blood on your dirty sleeve is drying and can't be washed away. I've fallen on my knees too often. If the only peace I can have is crying over your shattered picture. I'll pick it up off the ground and sleep with the broken glass.
I can't breathe when she speaks. She tells me I'm not special. She promised lines full of lies and a thousand roses. Our lives are laced with tragedy, a tragedy. Her eyes are filled with lies.
Heart prepare to shatter. I am nothing special... Heart prepare to shatter. Her eyes are filled with lies...
I can't breathe when she speaks. She tells me I'm not special. She promised lines full of lies and a thousand roses. Our lives are laced with tragedy, a tragedy. Her eyes are filled with lies.
She never knew… She was my only one, my only one. And now I'll never love again.
Today was so freaking ass boring man! Wanted to get out of the house , but nobody teman me , OH WELLS. Okay i practically dota-ed my heart out today. Lalalala. I so proud i only ate 2 meals today. Mmhmm. Some new diet plans! Rawr-ness!
Okay been searching for meaningful song lyrics these days. And i got this one. Really , really good.
Worth it? , By Sienna Skies
Sometimes we like to act with our actions before words With something to fight against Fight Against But in the end we have to ask Was it something to fight against? Fight Against
Sometimes you see the light You see straight through the fight and you know whats right And you know whats right. But then again sometimes its always dark and then we have to ask "Was it really worth it?"
And every time we fight for whats wrong and right We have to open up our eyes and see whats really worth it And every time we die for something that we fight Why do we live and lie for something really worth it?
Is it really worth it?
Only time will tell if we made the choice if this was worth it? And then the lies will show that this all was right And we were left to fight
And every time we fight for whats wrong and right We have to open up our eyes and see whats really worth it And every time we die for something that we fight Why do we live and lie for something really worth it? And every time we fight for whats wrong and right We have to open up our eyes and see whats really worth it And every time we die for something that we fight Why do we live and lie for something really worth it?
Take my hand and we will fight for something We will make sure it worth something Will You stand by By my side? Will We Fight? We will fight! We will fight forever if we believe this is worth it Will we fight? If We Believe We will fight This is worth it We will have no regrets Have no regrets
They got the best shits man , really respect them , they and their trancecore/ techno metal stuff. Love em.
Cant wait for toy story tomorrow though! yeah! mmhmm! yeah! rawr!
And also , Not forgetting! HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUONGYI!
My macha since std 3 i think. Now he's kinda weird calling me wife BUT STILL!
JIN WEI TOO! I DIDNT FORGET! Known him for a long time too , since std 2 i think :D!
You guys rock :D
Lalalala! Thats all for now . Good Night World . *kisses*
Sorry about the long pause . Penang was fun. Yeah! I was like going on 5 meals a day . Rawr! Some Char Koay Teow and Laksa . Mmhmm! Went to a place called Tanjung Tualang too! Ate some famouse seafood restaurant. Not too bad. :D
Life's been down lately though. Alot of complications came my way. And im trying to give my lall to solve every single one of them. I dont know why this things are happening but, yeah. Life what , WHAT TO DO? Threw shit at me , got some flowers back , now shits are puring again . Haha , some metaphors! :DD
I havent been posting any emo stuff lately , so here comes the emo that has been gone so long! LET IT POUR!
Okay , it starts with...
Here's a story about a guy (Guy A). This guy met this girl. Little did he know would become a big part of his life. Didnt like her at first. Thought she was like any other stuck up girl. This guy wanted to stay away , his friends all tell him so. HE didnt , he kept on talking and getting to know this girl. And yeah , he proved himself wrong , this girl wasnt no stuck up girl , she was an angel. He couldnt believe he could ever meet someone like her. He was ecstatic. He was a lonely guy. His friends were all working that time , but he got fired so he was alone . His friends were kinda busy so he did not go to bother them. So everyday he would look for her name on msn and talk to her instead. He felt a lot less lonely. He felt happy that someone like her would actually talk to him and accompany him.
Weeks past and the guy started falling for her. He would long for her texts everyday , he would think of her everyday befoer going off to sleep and she would appear in his mind first thing in the morning. Special she was to him , very special. Because he hasnt known anyone who would ever treat him the same way she did. She made him feel loved and needed. Something really rare for him , because outside of the family , he doesnt know anyone that would do the same. But his friends warned him , saying that this will only end in tears. They warned him to never fall for her , but their words came a little too late. He was already in love. Everyday , his aim is to make her smile. Her loved her smile. Sweet like an angel's they were to him. He loved it when she laughed and smiled. Because. He loved it when she was happy. And he told himself that he would do everything to keep it that way. A smile from her would make his day.
Months later. Another guy came along (Guy B) . So , well. He was a friend of Guy A. Guy A introduced him to her. Little did he know Guy B would fall for her. From that moment on , everything changed.
So , Guy A was as usual , trying everything to keep her smile going everyday. He started to love her more than anybody else. Well , he was just feeling the bliss of love because he doenst feel it often. He enjoyed every single bit of it. But , little by little , Guy B was getting closer and closer to her. Guy A knws but he did not stop it because he made her happy too , and above all else, Guy A wants her to be happy.
Guy A. He was tired, but he loved her . So , he still tried everything to be there for her for every second. He would run to her house just to give give her medicine because she had sore throat. He would do anything for her. (To me now , this guy was an idiot. Blinded by false promises of love.)
But soon, Guy B was getting closer by the minute . He was good. Guy A was jealous of course. Silently jealous. But still , he does not speak a word. He still believed his patience would pay off. ( WHAT A FOOL) .
Day by day , he grows weary. He knew he cant take the pain , but he still went on. He took everything in. He would look at them hugging from afar , while he waited for his , which never came. He would take long looks. He stand , stare and wait. He got hurt pretty badly , but he didnt care. His reason? Because he was able to see her happy. Above all else , he still wanted her to be happy , regardless of what pain he felt.
Then , the worst month came, She came to tell Guy A that she has fallen for Guy B. He was lost , his heart stopped. He did not know what to do. He wanted a way , but he couldnt find any, he was at a total lost. But he kept going. He didnt care , he believed he could still stand a chance. He still loved her. HE gave his all to keep her there.
Soon , he couldnt stand the pain any longer. He made a decision that , his patience cant win her heart because it was already been won. He gave up. He decided things would go on better without him anymore.
The End.
Rawr.
Ps. That Guy A is me. (:
Its a wonder, i dont mind playing guitar to a crowd, but when i try i sing and play to you , i cant seem to do anything. (:
Me and Birthday girl !
Me and Juls !
