So i guess im having another emo post i guess. I dont understand why i gotta have em. Well, i havent been blogging lately cause well i have been adapting to college life. I missed times where i used to update it every day , well mostly cause i was such a sad kid. I dont take comfort in feeling sad anymore, i dont wanna feel sad , but there are moments where i miss you , i really do. Times when i reflect on what i've done , i know im not special or anthing , but it well , i can say you were special to me. I re-read my old blog posts and seriously , smetimes i feeel like just crying but , time waits for no man and i have to move forward. Guess i never really got over you. I missed times when i still can belive that when you said no , it'll sound like try again and i'll pick myself up and tried my best. Guess my best wasnt good enough. Wasnt special enough i guess. But what hurt me the most , well , you had me believe in something that is never gonna happen , I could've saved myself alot of pain and time if you were a lil more straightforward. Well history is history and i'd pray it never repeats itself.
You know what , im actually like half dead inside everyday , trying to smeli way way through every freaking day. Sick and tired , never recovered from the flu and cough i caught in japan , hope its not h1n1 or some shit. My usual sleeping time perday is like 3-4 hours , i have realy bad insomnia nowadays, and god dammit do i feel lonely. I have a ton of friends , but none of them i can actually speak to quietly and expres myself personally. I dont have that person that i can talk everything and anything to. Maybe a few come close but yeah. cant really express myself personally , i portray infront of you someone you want to see , not the real me , minus the cigarette fagging part. But if were that someone would come , i'd give up a billlion cigarettes or a billlion dota games for that someone , Serious Shit.
I guess i'll just spend more time talking to myself.
I feel like smothering someone , like seriously :)
Let me be the one who calls you baby
All the time
Surely you can take some comfort
Knowing that you're mine
Just hold me tight, lay by my side
and let me be the one who calls you
Baby all the time
I found my place in the world
Could stare at your face for the rest of
my days
Now I can breathe, turn my insides out
and Smother me
Warm and alive I'm all over you
would you smother me?
Let me be the one who never leaves
You all alone
I hold my breath and lose the feeling
That I'm on my own
Hold me too tight stay by my side
and let me be the one who calls you
Baby all the time
When I'm alone time goes so slow
I need you here with me
and how my mistakes have made
Your heart break
Still I need you here with me
Baby I'm here.
Hee :D , i know im cheesy. Just wanted to show off a lil bit :P.
I took her out, it was a Friday night
I wore cologne to get the feeling right
We started makin' out and she took off my pants
But then, I turned on the TV
And that's about the time she walked away from me
Nobody likes you when you're 23
And are still more amused by TV shows
What the hell, is ADD, my friends say I should act my age
What's my age again?
What's my age again?
Then later on, on the drive home
I called her mom from a payphone
I said I was the cops and your husband's in jail
This state looks down on sodomy
And that's about the time that bitch hung up on me
Nobody likes you when you're 23
And are still more amused by prank phone calls
What the hell is call ID, my friends say I should act my age
What's my age again?
What's my age again?
And that's about the time she walked away from me
Nobody likes you when you're 23
And you still act like you're in freshman year
What the hell is wrong with me, my friends say I should act my age
What's my age again?
That's about the time that she broke up with me (what's my age again?)
No one should take themselves so seriously
With many years ahead to fall in line
Why would you wish that in me, I'll never wanna ct my age
What's my age again?
Sweet! another year has come and pass , there goes high school. Sigh , i wish high school never ends, all the times scaling walls and climbing out thru the padang fences. Smoking outside in the lorong with the gang. Although i try to reduce and quit it eventually :) . Yes , i started when i was form 1 with my bestfriend back then , Yong Hui. Bad habit , dont smoke , bad for health. Yes , people come and go , and there are freinds that i intend to keep for life. Yes , you know who you are. Well , this year , im glad to say i found out who my true friends are. And even though i've ben thru more fail romances this year than i did my whole entire secondary life , im glad i met those people. One even ended up being like one of my best friends. Im really gonna miss SMKSU. C'mon man , where else can you kick a vending machine and get 4 ice lemon teas for the price of 1? Where else can you sleep in class get scolded , and well sleeep again. Dodging discipline teachers in the doorways has become an art , a skill you must hone and sharpen. In the earlier days i got myself into deepshit , luckily i've changed for the better but still , my yearly attendance , lets just say im lucky to be in school two thrids of the time. Now im worrying my socks off because i didnt study for spm at all , hoping i would get enough for college. And for those who shits around behind my back , screw you because i know who you are , cant believe my ears when i heard. One day karma would eat your asses , you'll see. :)
Now , who can forget this moment in time :D
Okay , im tired of posting pics so...Watch these retarded vids i made when i was "suicidal" after some news. And i was partly high. Retarded Tang Part 1 Retarded Tang Part 2
BESIDES THAT.
Most important thing i learned this year.
Bro Code Chapter One;
BROS BEFORE HOES.
Never choose a girl over your bro , i've done so many times and i regret it every single time. Never ever choose a girl over a bro.
Its been a while since my last post. Been making use of my new found freedom. Hee :D . Yes i cant believe that i'll be the loser who gets sick and injured during christmas , but the christmas spirit in me has kept me going , went out for 2 whole days even tho my head is like being poked by bamboo sticks. So far , i can say life's been fair to me. Happy to be able to conclude that for once ;) .
Okay just wanna go thru a little about prom. 4 days before prom , my prom date got well , a boyfriend and it was really inappropraite for her to go with me , so yeah. Maybe some supernatural powers were at work because i found an even prom date , i think. Thank you again. Well , after prom was just crazy , my good friend Jeremy got so drunk , he practically walked into a pillar without noticing it. He slept over with me , hope im still not touched anywhere. And woke up with him poking my face. Weirdest thing ever. Freaky.
The Dudes
Yes, we look like a mafia gang or something.
Charissa , my prom date
Yes , we were already drunk
Rayna and me
With my sis :D , oh i look so blur here.
Oh and thennnnnnnnnnnnnn, I got invited by john to a xmas party with his cell group and loads of other friends.
Yes , we do look cool.
Love you dudes man :D
Sigh , im gonna miss you guys so much. Yes , i am getting emotional. I'll save that for later , a new post for 2010. :)
Yes, I am finally back after a month of absence . yes , this post stays true to its titile, someone there is driving me crazy! okay enough about that. Well , lets summarise what happened after spm. Went pyramid , ate papa john's watched the social network with gibby ee while others watched harry potter. Blloody good show , The Social Network ,5 stars! Blah bblah blah , went cc until 2 am after that . Ended up sleeping in nehe's house. WAIT BEST PART! we played an epic game of saidina (Malaysian Monopoly) Crap this is getting boring . ._. Woohoo! Popping bottles in the ice , Like a blizzard! :D
Well , i fell in love with a band called Adept. Lovely hardcore vocals!
Teehee :D
A dance beneath the sparkling sky,
The silent touch of vivid grace.
Your hand fits mine like a perfect match.
We kids in lust and the night is young
The dance that we share will guide the way.
The unforgettable romance.
You whisper "hope" like no one else.
But only for tonight.
I am the bullet in your gun
You've had me loaded since day one
So play your cards right girl,
This beating heart is yours to break!
This soldier surrenders,
Don't hesitate now,
This is what you wanted all along.
With steady hands she makes her aim
She locks and loads are you in her way?
Her smile hits the mark.
She has those gorgeous piercing eyes,
Red coloured lips that suck you dry
She is so fashion!
Her words might seem to make things right,
But she will walk on your hopes and dreams tonight.
She is so fashion!
She's deadly fashion!
She's been the talk of our town.
So we all know that her words are poison
She'll fake a smile when the timings right
But that cunt will stab you in the back
Her eyes are set to make the top.
She spread legs like a swing-door opens up
My bad, I started this rumour,
That you sell your mouth for a dollar!
And if I know her right, that precious little whore,
She's on her back screaming out for more.
So if I know her right, that precious little whore,
She's screaming
Her smile hits the mark
With steady hands she takes her aim
She locks and loads, are you in her way?
Lyrics that can kill a girl c:
So, how's life? Lovely! Everything s so flowery and nice now. I cant wait till December 20! :D
C'mon Start your bidding wars! 4 Ipod Shuffles are at stake here!! OKay i aint selling below 100 bucks . I realised I havent even opened em , so , keep those bids coming. Pics will be up by tmrw , keep yourselves posted!
Okay , Big Man Alvin T is gonna join an eating competition tmrw! Everybody please come! Support him , If he wins , FREE FOOD FOR A WHOLE YEAR! YES FREE. DONT GET ME WRONG. FREEEEEEE!!
Yes , its true. This band is my inspiration. Their lyrics live up to the name of this blog post title.
They are also known as : Alesana.
I doubt most of you dont know who are they. Their lyrics makes MCR (My chemical romance ) lyrics sound like kids stuff. They were formed in 2004 blah blah blah. Lets cut to the chase. Best band ever if you like lyrics that have a thousand hidden meanings and encrypted messages. I'll cover one of their songs one day , if i possibly scream as much as em before getting sore throat.
Here are some samples of their wonderful work.
The Artist.
What is wrong with her eyes?
A glossy stare that won't leave me be starts my blood running cold
A gaze that could make hell freeze over
I have to understand she's gone
But she's not
Don't you tell me that she is dead
Watch her lips softly move because she's still whispering to me!
And something here is not quite right
Skin so cold beneath my touch
as I brush back her hair and close her eyes
But I cannot stand to turn away
When I do, she'll be gone
It's frightening
Sweaty hands will fail to lock the door
They'll be here soon
I wish I could keep my teeth from grinding
I wish I'd stop looking behind me
Running now will only make it worse
They'll be here soon
I wish I could shake the awful feeling
I wish my mind would stop
Maybe I am crazy and my mind is trying to deceive me
As the ground vanishes I wonder,
will the sky be the next to fail me?
Paint abandons canvas
And my brush can't seem to start again from scratch
As I watch everything unravel,
Why should I even try to stop the collapse?
I won't
Shaking as I rest her body down
No one knows, only me
It's frightening
Sweaty hands will fail to lock the door
They'll be here soon
I wish I could keep my teeth from grinding
I wish I'd stop looking behind me
Running now will only make it worse
They'll be here soon
I wish I could shake the awful feeling
I wish my mind would stop
Maybe I am crazy and my mind is trying to deceive me
As the ground vanishes I wonder,
Will the sky be the next to fail me?
Paint abandons canvas
And my brush can't seem to start again from scratch
As I watch everything unravel,
Why should I even try to stop the collapse?
I won't
Why should I even try to stop the collapse?
Why should I even try...
There's a madman staring straight at me
Oh I know I've seen his face before
I am sure I've seen his face before
Maybe I am crazy and my mind is trying to deceive me
As the ground vanishes I wonder,
Will the sky be the next to fail me?
Paint abandons canvas
And my brush can't seem to start again from scratch
As I watch everything unravel,
Why should I even try to stop the collapse?
The Thespian.
Baby! why are you doing this to me?
Sweetheart! are those your eyes staring straight back at me?
Angel! I see your smile everywhere!
Darling! stop!
Night falls and I'm running in circles
I'm being chased by my imagination
Tell me I'm forgiven say you'll always be mine
Say that everything is over, tell me I'm fine...
No one deserves to live like this!
I touch your lips and stare in your eyes
You smile and it makes me fly
You are the reason my heart beats
Tonight it's just you and me...
Night as dark as my thoughts sets the scene for my return
Lightning nips at my heels as I race home
Wearily I stagger towards the song of her pale voice
Demons jeer my attempt to be free
Tell me I'm forgiven say you'll always be mine
Say that everything is over, tell me I'm fine...
No one deserves to live like this!
I touch your lips and stare in your eyes
You smile and it makes me fly
You are the reason my heart beats
Tonight it's just you and me...
Windows cast her gentle reflection
Her somber silhouette dances for me
Dear God, it's her!
Look at you, you miserable fool!
Get off your knees, your prayers fall upon deaf ears
Gods turned his back on you, heavens gates are shut
And now you're knocking on the devils door!
I've been expecting you for some time, sir
Allow me to introduce myself
I'm the one who pulls on all the strings, son
You're lucky I don't kill you where you stand!
This can't be real
Tonight I raise my glass
There's nothing left
For I know it's time to move on
All hope has failed
My patience will not last
I've lost my soul
Tomorrow I will be gone
And my personal favourite.
Beautiful In Blue.
Silence screams, "you're just so beautiful in blue"
Breathless stares escape your undying eyes
Are you blind to my sorrow and sympathy?
A piece of me will die with your last breath...
This will all be over soon for you are so lost inside
Glazed eyes long for the waves' embrace
Drawn to an end so near...
Far away are days when you smiled just to hear my voice
Why are you trying to run away?
My love, I can't find the words to tell you...
Drown all of your fantasies with your final broken promise
Silent angel crashes through sky, having lost sight of the stars
Regail me with your tales of lonely, bittersweet loss
Giving up comes to easy when hope is gone
I'll walk away so you can choke on your dying breath
But if you side against me, to hell with you...
Far away are days when you smiled just to hear my voice
Why are you trying to run away?
My love, I can't find the words to tell you...
The fear has stolen her heart as she wakes from her dream
Treacherous ink finds her lungs, seizing her screams
Numb hands now reach too late to take back the light
Far away are days when you smiled just to hear my voice
Why are you trying to run away?
My love, I can't find the words to tell you...
Far away are days when you smiled...
Seas cry out butchering this tragic soul without hope
Their frailty is broken and now fades into the blue...
Okay Thats All for now. Hope you guys enjoy the screamings, or not .
This is only gonna be a short post only sadly. So , Nothing much has happened lately , only the fact that is sleep like 23 hours a day!
Hurrah! Arsenal Whooped Shaktar Donetsk's ass 5-1 Woohoo! Great show of exquisite skill and class by Arsenal! hehe , All Arsenal fans pay tribute to Eduardo Da Silva! Scored against Arsenal at the Emirates for the 1st time.
Okay , lately i've just been soo lonely. Only been hanging out with Haseef. My rocker buddy! :DD . Gonna record a new single soon. From Dodo. Our 2 man band. Rawr. ALBUM IN STORES SOON!
HeheHuhu. Weelalalalololele. I dont know what to say anymore. Bored and lonely. Someone come and teman me laa :(
Btw , my cravings for the elusive Ramlies are back (Ramly+Brownies)
Disgusting huh.
This song is so stuck in my head right now. Whee. :DD
Let me be the one who calls you baby
