I NEED RAMNIES/BRAMLY! :D

What a day. Stupid Chem exams. I cant do. EVEN WITH LEAKS. Now that is stupid. I FEEL SO STUPID D: . I practically did what i did best nowadays. SLEEP! THE WHOLE DAY! I feel so so so. so. UNPRODUCTIVE. :( . IWANTRAMNIESANDIWANTTHEMNOW. Okay so now im kinda back playing football. Im back as a left footer. My right foot is as useless as SHIT. I hope i can still kick a ball. Or even run . D: . I'd hate to say this but. I dont care . Im gonna play the game i love. Even if i lose my right leg and be some useless leftfoot guy who uses left foot because he's actually a right footer but cant use his right foot anymore! LOL. now that was long. So . Feeling better by the minute. I did something amazing just now. I added green tea with peppermint powder , jasmine petals and honey. It makes a surprisingly refreshing cold drink! :D . I wanna thank my 2 bros for helping me back into football. Play with them weekly abit of kickabouts here and there. Trained my limping right foot back into a walking one. DERRICK IS STILL A DIPSHIT! I cant find my freaking fifa 10 cd. :( . I LOVE HOW I MET YOUR MOTHER! Funniest shit ever man.

Signing off. Goodnight world. :)

Smashed into Pieces. But hopefuly still alive.

Exams. and i i shouldnt be here. But what the hell. RAWR. Chemistry leaks again? -.- i've gotta stop this leak crap. I need chocolate! ROAR . BUT I JUST ATE CHOCOLATE. Haih. I CANT FIND ANY RAMNIES ANYWHERE D: THIS SUCKS. I NEED RAMNIES. ROAR. Too tired to write anymore.

Signing off. Still miss you.

Beneath The Encasing Of Ash And Dust , Lies My Emotions.

OH great what a day. SLEEPING as usual. Im never tired of sleeping. Allows me to escape reality for a moment :) . Okay so. today was simple. Sleep and eat. Rawr. I feel so lifeless. Been playing guitar alot suddenly . My fingers are skinned :D . Ate pan mee for breakfast / lunch at 3'oclock -.- . I MADE UP SOMETHING CALLED RAMNIES ! Ramly + BROWNIES. Now thats what i call a perfect dish :D . I need something that keeps me going everyday and i think i found it. Chasing my dreams. Plotting every single move in my head. Not dreams as i career and stuff. Dreams as in goals that i awnna complete in a few days or so. I've been living int he past for the past 1 month. Time to fly back to the present. EXAMS AND I AINT STUDYING WOO! YEAH! :D . John predicts that im gonna be an alam flora staff next time. DONT THINK SO. I'D BE A POST MAN! ALAM FLORA STINKS!!! I need ecstasy. I think i wanna try out some weed! :D . I can get some. I know my sources :D. I FOUND MY OLD POLICE REPORT :O. Oh damned son of a mother. I am a badddd boy >: ) . ROCK STAR! Cant believe that i used to be so gay. LOL. I need my old life back. The carefree-ness. Less responsibilities. Less things to care about. Slinky , dirty and retarded . OH WELL. Time to change. (:

Signing off.

Weee

Had a great day i guess. :D. I feel so much happier i guess. life's been abit easier. Well. today i woke up at 5 so whatever nothing to say LOL. Has Japanese food for dinner tho. It was lovely :D . GRILLED FISH RULEZ! Oh wells. Practically dota-ed my night away. Met 2 new friends tonight HAHA. One dude from kedah named Jae Hann and Someone who is gonna give me a WINNIE THE POOH TOY!! Thanks Trisha Toh :D . Nice to meet you guys btw.


Oh wells. Goodnight. Signing off. Miss you. :)

Scream For My Ice Cream! ♥

Okay. Im sick of putting up emo posts and all. So I'll try to have a happy one. Today was boring as usual. Woke up at 2, had some breakfast and all. Found my old camera so i got some old imba gay shit SS camwhoring shots of myself :D . Ahh brings back memories :D .


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Wow. People actaullay call me lengzai. HAHA GOT MEH? I LOOK DAMN SOHAI OK.


Woo i got super cool hair in this one :D


Woo when i got my 1st piercings.



SHIT i feel like slapping myself. SO GAY D:



I DAMN BAJET GANGSTER D:



WEEEEE!! SUSHI KING ! :D


Then after that i got a few pics that i saved inside the camera. Wasnt taken by me tho :D




LOL. i remembered this. i loook so blur :D




SOME FOOTBALL FORMATIONS! WOO!


Some pics i took in HONG KONG! :D . Lazy to post all.



MY BIRTHDAY :D



THEN WTH IS THIS? btw this wasnt acted out. IT REALLY HAPPENED. DURING BIO!



Me learning pool at subang square :D


Ooh I loved green tea frap :D







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AND THIS ONE HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH MY CAMERA! I SAW IT AND LAUGHED MY ASS OFF. * note: anderson got jealous* :D


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Tears of joys and memories flood my eyes! I love getting myself back into thesse memories. And SCREW YOU ALVIN FOR DITCHING ME IN DOTA. SAME GOES FOR JULIAN SHERN JIIAN AND CHEN SHEN. GAY FAGS.

Signing Off. Goodnight. Miss You. Sweet Dreams. :D

I'm Lost Without You.

I swear that I can go on forever again
Please let me know that my one bad day will end
I will go down as your lover, your friend


Are you afraid of being alone
Cause I am, I'm lost without you
Are you afraid of leaving tonight
Cause I am, I'm lost without you

I'll leave my room open till sunrise for you
I'll keep my eyes patiently focused on you
Where are you now I can hear footsteps I'm dreaming
And if you will, keep me from waking to believe this.

If you plan on leaving tonight. Im lost forever .

I Think I Died From The Collision Of Your Kiss , Because I Feel Like Im In Heaven. : )

Yesterday was a tiring day so i didnt update . Well been very active because its new and i wanna make it look nice. LOL... So erm yeah. Tried to sleep early yesterday but failed again. But thanks for twinkle twinkle little star yesterday! :D . Okay so yesterday was kinda stupid. All i did was sit on a railing on a bridge looking emo , some old dude came to me asked me not to jump. Now do i look that suicidal? Well I THINK SO. :( . Then like 1 hour afater that some car almost smashed me into bits. Emergency breaked in time just for the bumper to touch my feet. Thank god im alive .

My legs hurt like crap lately. So does my back. And my head. All i do in exams are falling asleep. Now thats just gay. I think i aced physics and add maths. You guys get what i mean. ;D . ngehehe. Imbaness of my shoe!

Well,
And it`s happened once again
I`ll turn to a friend
Someone that understands
Sees through the master plan

But everybody`s gone
And I`ve been here for too long
To face this on my own
Well I guess this is growing up.

And I got this song that i think has really cool lyrics lol.

Good Charlotte- Break Apart Her Heart.

When you call she doesn't answer, when you write she doesn't answer
You go out you see him with her, she told you she was sick at home
The ring you gave her thrown away with all the letters
And when you see him with her, he doesn't even care at all

As she follows him around like you follow her around
And he doesn't even care and your figuring out
The only way your gonna keep somebody around
Well I'm about to let you know

There's something I don't wanna understand
The only way a woman is gonna want a man
The only way you'll ever keep her in your hands
Is breaking apart her heart
Don't tell her she is the reason that you live
Don't give her everything that you got to give
If you want to keep the girl for as long as you live
Just break it apart her heart

Can't you see the way she's crying
Well that's what keeps her trying, she knew that she could have you
And he don't give her what she wants
There's truth about this, you say you want to be noticed
Well if you want to be noticed you gotta learn to break some hearts
Don't try to understand
Can't you see what you've done?
What I've become, what I've become
Can't you see? Can't you see?

I don't understand this cruelty
I don't understand... its just not me
I don't understand this cruelty
But now I see.

Damn emo wow.

Without You . That Will Be How I Dissapear.

Well. I'm Like Blogging everyday nowadays. Its like talking to someone really really close. I miss actually talking . But this is a worthy substitution so you're gonna see me very often. I blurt out everything here. It feels so much better afterwards. A temporary ecstasy to my pain.

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Today was boring as ever. Tiring and sad. But laughed like mad just now because of some joke a wrestler made. those who know about wrestling would know. JOHN CENA JUST SAID : When he was in cloud nine when i won that match. But suddenly a man that is WHITER than cloud nine Sheamus came and kicked me in the face. LMAO. THEN HE SAID. IM CHALLENGING THAT FREAKING HUMAN JAR OF MAYONAISE SHEAMUS. LOL! I didnt laugh like that for a very long time. Haha . IT felt great.

Had dinner with Xiu Ming just now. Didnt eat though. No appetite. Yeah kinda rare for me. Sat down and listened to her memorise sejarah stuff. Im so sorry i swore. Had teh tarik. And haha she noticed i've grown abit taller :D . And i looked different somehow nowadays.

I think i looked different because i cant seem to smile properly nowadays. My face feels like paper. Nothing gives me the motivation to smile again. Hurt by failures. Torn by lost oppurtunities. But always salvage by hopes. Like they say. HOPES DIE LAST! It maybe false or broken hopes. But i still have it. Something seems to give me hope everyday. Even though the hope is so fragile that its like almost hanging on a string. I'll still cherish it and embrace it. Hope i shall have. And maybe someday , Hope i shall give.
Will you come back and stop this pain tonight? Because you're already the voice inside my head. Turn my frowns upside down .

I Tried to be perfect but nothing was worth it. I've Never been so wrong.

My one wish is to talk to you now. I wish somehow you'll miraculously call me or something. But that aint gonna happen. But i'll still have hope.

Instead of studying bio. Im playing my guitar with emo songs blasting in my ears. Talking to huongyi about all the emo stuff. Maybe frustrating him lol.

You dont know how much i miss you. Every single second i have. My mind is full of thoughts of you. I need a hug from you again to make me smile again. Like you never failed to do. I think hugging my winnie will have to do tonight.

Ku rasa bagaikan malam ini terang. Sungguh indah Seindah sinarnya. Terdengar dalam Khayalan masa itu. Mesti mimpi. Tersenyum dalam mimpi tu.

Paint My Skies Bright Blue Again. Hypnotise me. Mesmerise me. Take me away once again.

You're Special , You're Like A Rocket Through Me.










Love em Pon And Zi.

Signing off.
Missing you. Sweet Dreams.