Oh Darling

Darling , I always wished that i was the on who can keep you smiling but then i wasnt the reason the smile in your sleep, i always wished that i was the one that can give you everything , i always wished that i could be the one that you boast to your friends about , i always wished that I was the one who sings you to sleep. I used to wish that you'll tell your friends that no one knows you like I do and that you'll do the same I'll tell you how I took one straight to the heart when you talk about your other boyfriends , and that i'll pretend that i didnt feel a thing.

And then one day my wishes came true as i wished on a shooting star , I promise i'll hold you close in my arms , close in my heart , till the day heaven calls. Darling i love you so much , the reason that keeps me smiling , the reason why i wake up every morning smiling , the reason that keeps me going. The times when we're down , the moments when we're holding each other like we're gonna hold each other forever , the hugs where we'll never let go , the kisses that we wished that'll last forever. the times where I held my world in my arms . I'll carry you this way all the way to the grave baby!

 

This One's For You , Sweetheart.

Okay , today I have a spontaneous and totally random thing for my one and only. 

Here's the thing , i suddenly thought of writing a song and the lyrics just flew into my mind , i know im not a good singer , nor am i a good guitarist , but i really wanted to play this song and share it out , even though i just used my phone to record it , i hope you get to listen it properly though , even if you dont the lyrics are below. And yeah if you're guessing i stole the intro from some indonesian song :P

Woke up from dreaming , 

this beautiful dream,

I saw your open eyes ,

staring into mine ,

My wonderful dream,

She was my friend ,

the very best friend,

being with her,

was only a dream ,

i wasnt good enough.

I see her through pain ,

heartaches and breaks,

I hold her in my arms ,

My dearest i will ,

She was the one.

Im in love with this girl ,

She couldnt love again ,

because of her past , 

she lost hope on love.

Determined I am ,

To show her I can , 

To show her new hope ,

Mistakes I make , 

determined to change ,

I love her so ,

I love her so ,

I love her so ,

I love you. 

My Sweetheart , Emelia Chan Kah Huei <3

P.S : I love you , my queen.

This Time Around - Thera

I wish that I could be someone that you need
Someone that you want
But I’m not I’m not
I’m alone and I’m weak
Afraid of everything
So could you turn away from me?

I thought I’d stand my ground
And shield you from the crowd
But as the panic spread I lost your hand
I crept off like a rat
A coward in the black
So could you turn away from me?

When this goes, one more time 
You know I will, stand I’ll stand
I wait for you

Don't look now, I’m not there 
Don’t look now I’m already gone already gone
You might find I’m a mess
You might find I’ll let you down let you down

When this goes around, one more time
I know I will, stand I'll stand
And I'll stretch my eyes, across the sky
And where you are I’ll be there

I Found Love In A Hopeless Place.

Well , Its been so long since I've been blogging but this is a post made for my special someone :) . Well its like a fairytale story for me , its like we've known each other for so long and somehow after so many years of seeing and knowing each other , but not talking to each other maybe because I was too shy . Imaginary couple at the age of 7 made by our parents. I've fallen in love with my childhood friend , my best friend. She might be my first but i have a feeling she will also be my last. I might be an amateur in relationships and how to deal with problems and all but I'm sure of 1 thing and that is I'm in love with this angel that was sent to me. Never did i thought that one day she would be mine , never did i thought when i was younger when i was sitting across the table and wondering who the hell was that pretty girl that was sitting there and then a few years later she would be in my arms. When I first started to get close to her around a year back , i realized something , i have this hunch inside me to go for her because she might be the one, but i was scared , i was scared that she will turn out like the others who breaks me , i was scared to lose a childhood friend i just found and i just kept quiet about my feelings. It took me a year and 2 relationships of hers to finally get my chance , which i took it with everything i got .  It might not have started as well as I imagined it because of some interference from some friends , but I dont care because i just think is something like an obstacle or challenge thrown at us and we will go through it. People think it as easy come easy go , people think we're going too fast , so are you all saying that it was easy looking at the person i love go thru 2 relationships , being happy , for me keeping my feelings to myself and telling her that those guys are the one because she seemed so happy with them? Sacrificing my own happiness for the sake of hers? Think about it , if that was easy why not putting yourself in my shoes. 


Okay , this one's for you and me baby.

P.S I Love You Baby , Forever and Always. :)