Sunshine Peeking Through The Rain , This Happiness is Drenched With Pain.

So i guess im having another emo post i guess. I dont understand why i gotta have em. Well, i havent been blogging lately cause well i have been adapting to college life. I missed times where i used to update it every day , well mostly cause i was such a sad kid. I dont take comfort in feeling sad anymore, i dont wanna feel sad , but there are moments where i miss you , i really do. Times when i reflect on what i've done , i know im not special or anthing , but it well , i can say you were special to me. I re-read my old blog posts and seriously , smetimes i feeel like just crying but , time waits for no man and i have to move forward. Guess i never really got over you. I missed times when i still can belive that when you said no , it'll sound like try again and i'll pick myself up and tried my best. Guess my best wasnt good enough. Wasnt special enough i guess. But what hurt me the most , well , you had me believe in something that is never gonna happen , I could've saved myself alot of pain and time if you were a lil more straightforward. Well history is history and i'd pray it never repeats itself.

You know what , im actually like half dead inside everyday , trying to smeli way way through every freaking day. Sick and tired , never recovered from the flu and cough i caught in japan , hope its not h1n1 or some shit. My usual sleeping time perday is like 3-4 hours , i have realy bad insomnia nowadays, and god dammit do i feel lonely. I have a ton of friends , but none of them i can actually speak to quietly and expres myself personally. I dont have that person that i can talk everything and anything to. Maybe a few come close but yeah. cant really express myself personally , i portray infront of you someone you want to see , not the real me , minus the cigarette fagging part. But if were that someone would come , i'd give up a billlion cigarettes or a billlion dota games for that someone , Serious Shit.

I guess i'll just spend more time talking to myself.

I feel like smothering someone , like seriously :)

Let me be the one who calls you baby
All the time
Surely you can take some comfort
Knowing that you're mine
Just hold me tight, lay by my side
and let me be the one who calls you
Baby all the time

I found my place in the world
Could stare at your face for the rest of
my days
Now I can breathe, turn my insides out
and Smother me
Warm and alive I'm all over you
  would you smother me?

Let me be the one who never leaves
        You all alone
        I hold my breath and lose the feeling
        That I'm on my own
        Hold me too tight stay by my side
       and let me be the one who calls you
       Baby all the time

       When I'm alone time goes so slow
         I need you here with me
      and how my mistakes have made
         Your heart break
     Still I need you here with me
         Baby I'm here.

Hee :D , i know im cheesy. Just wanted to show off a lil bit :P.

Thats all for now , Goodnight :)

OH Random POST! Whats my age again?

I took her out, it was a Friday night
I wore cologne to get the feeling right
We started makin' out and she took off my pants
But then, I turned on the TV

And that's about the time she walked away from me
Nobody likes you when you're 23
And are still more amused by TV shows
What the hell, is ADD, my friends say I should act my age
What's my age again?
What's my age again?

Then later on, on the drive home
I called her mom from a payphone
I said I was the cops and your husband's in jail
This state looks down on sodomy

And that's about the time that bitch hung up on me
Nobody likes you when you're 23
And are still more amused by prank phone calls
What the hell is call ID, my friends say I should act my age
What's my age again?
What's my age again?

And that's about the time she walked away from me
Nobody likes you when you're 23
And you still act like you're in freshman year
What the hell is wrong with me, my friends say I should act my age
What's my age again?

That's about the time that she broke up with me (what's my age again?)
No one should take themselves so seriously
With many years ahead to fall in line
Why would you wish that in me, I'll never wanna ct my age
What's my age again?

2010 ;')

Sweet! another year has come and pass , there goes high school. Sigh , i wish high school never ends, all the times scaling walls and climbing out thru the padang fences. Smoking outside in the lorong with the gang. Although i try to reduce and quit it eventually :) . Yes , i started when i was form 1 with my bestfriend back then , Yong Hui. Bad habit , dont smoke , bad for health. Yes , people come and go , and there are freinds that i intend to keep for life. Yes , you know who you are. Well , this year , im glad to say i found out who my true friends are. And even though i've ben thru more fail romances this year than i did my whole entire secondary life , im glad i met those people. One even ended up being like one of my best friends. Im really gonna miss SMKSU. C'mon man , where else can you kick a vending machine and get 4 ice lemon teas for the price of 1? Where else can you sleep in class get scolded , and well sleeep again. Dodging discipline teachers in the doorways has become an art , a skill you must hone and sharpen. In the earlier days i got myself into deepshit , luckily i've changed for the better but still , my yearly attendance , lets just say im lucky to be in school two thrids of the time. Now im worrying my socks off because i didnt study for spm at all , hoping i would get enough for college. And for those who shits around behind my back , screw you because i know who you are , cant believe my ears when i heard. One day karma would eat your asses , you'll see. :)

 

 Now , who can forget this moment in time :D



 Okay , im tired of posting pics so...Watch these retarded vids i made when i was "suicidal" after some news. And i was partly high.
Retarded Tang Part 1
Retarded Tang Part 2

BESIDES THAT.
Most important thing i learned this year.



Bro Code Chapter One;

BROS BEFORE HOES.

Never choose a girl over your bro , i've done so many times and i regret it every single time. Never ever choose a girl over a bro.

See the Code , Learn The Code , Live The Code.

I will have another post on my Japan trip though.

"Life isnt the book but the pages you turn,

Judge not by the cover but the author alone."

"Im almost a guy who has pms , like whatthefuck."