18 & Life - Skid Row

Ricky was a young boy, He had a heart of stone. 
Lived 9 to 5 and worked his fingers to the bone. 
Just barely out of school, came from the edge of town. 
Fought like a switchblade so no one could take him down, nooo
He had no money, oooh no good at home. 
He walked the streets a soldier and he fought the world alone 


18 and life. You got it 
18 and life you know 
Your crime is time and it's 
18 and life to go 


18 and life You got it 
18 and life you know 
Your crime is time and it's 
18 and life to go 


Tequila in his heartbeat, His veins burned gasoline. 
It kept his motor running but it never kept him clean. 
They say he loved adventure, "Ricky's the wild one." 
He married trouble and had a courtship with a gun. 
Bang Bang Shoot 'em up, The party never ends. 
You can't think of dying when the bottle's your best friend 
And now it's 


18 and life You got it 
18 and life you know 
Your crime is time and it's 
18 and life to go


18 and life You got it 
18 and life you know 
Your crime is time and it's 
18 and life to go 


"Accidents will happen" they all heard Ricky say 
He fired his six-shot to the wind that blew a child away. 


18 and life You got it 
18 and life you know 
Your crime is time and it's 
18 and life to go 


18 and life You got it 
18 and life you know 
Your crime is time and it's 
18 and life to go

Reprogrammed to Hate

Yes i am shortly back to blogging. Maybe because I have too many sleepless nights. Pressure is piling on me as my final exams are close , i do not give a shit about studying actually , all i want is to live to the fullest , and not stuck in an air-cond room everyday to learn stuff I will almost never use in the future just to get a shitty piece of paper called a "degree".

Sometimes i feel life is pointless , we live we die , whats the point of living when you cant enjoy half of the time you have left. Some people should learn to live it to the fullest. And that is not gaining knowledge in a classroom , it should be gained while exploring the world , while learning from real life experiences , not taught from other people's experiences and mistakes but your own. Life is becoming too complicated. People of the younger generation nowadays only fuss about 2 things , exams and crappy relationships. I mean , what the fuck are you thinking? There's so much more to life. The older generation only cares about making money and how to teach their children to make money by sending them to colleges to get fancy degrees so that hey can be proud of us and show off to people about how good their sons/daughters are. What about our life? Our life is built only to satisfy others but not ourselves. When are the days where self satisfaction is key?

They say self satisfaction is selfish , but if we are made to satisfy others, whats the point of living? Whats the point of living for the sake of others? The world is a weird place to live in nowadays and hopefully i wont live to see the situation worsen. I'd rather die than to live in a world full of weird mindsets and complicated but pointless objectives to live. Some youths think "love" and exams are the thing to die for , Well , fuck them , they do not know the meaning of living , pointless mindfucked people , mindfucked by the society around us , the weird culture.

Enough for today , im actually sleepy. Bedtime.

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A show of hands, who has said these words before 
With a show of hearts on the floor, who has ever meant them more 
Well I'll swallow my pride if you'll stay for the years 
And watch me spin circles as I disappear 
Hearts, they don't lie they just quiver in fear 
As you say 
Tonight we, forget everything 
And stay the night 
If I was wrong then I'm sorry 
I'll stop this fight 
For the night 
And this empty space left in the seat 
To my right where you should be says a lot 
Don't let it say goodbye 
And today I know that tomorrow is going to shine golden and bring our hearts back home 
And today meant nothing, because youre gone
And I swear that this meant everything to me, because my hearts not home. 

I Cant Wait Till I Get Home To Pass The Time In My Room Alone.

Okay , my blog is like super dead nowadays cause i dont have anything to blog about. So imma do one of my classic emo posts. 

So yeah, wondering what happened? I fell for the wrong girl again. It was super accidental. I really didnt want it to happen but it did. But i dont look back and regret , i dont live life with remorse. I did the worst mistake a guy could ever do. My mind was all mashed up and i did stupid things and i screwed everything up. All i wanted was to taste valentine's for at least once in my life. Maybe this is not the year.

Its true , i have loads of close friends that are girls , and i love em alot , they're wonderful , really. They are always there when im down , great friends indeed. 

But. I really dont wanna ask much..or sound despo , but , but , i want someone that i could share all my problem with , a person i could sit down and talk for hours with , someone i could take for a walk in the park , or share with her a pint of icecream ,  watch a movie or have a quiet candlelit dinner with. Take care of her when she's sick , give her a different flower everytime we go out just to look at that smile on her face. Ah , how i long for that special girl to come someday.

Shit , im going really heavy on the ciggarettes nowadays , really bad for my health , but what the hell.

Oh well , enough emo-ness for today , tomorrow will hold better things . All i have to do is smile. :)

Sunshine Peeking Through The Rain , This Happiness is Drenched With Pain.

So i guess im having another emo post i guess. I dont understand why i gotta have em. Well, i havent been blogging lately cause well i have been adapting to college life. I missed times where i used to update it every day , well mostly cause i was such a sad kid. I dont take comfort in feeling sad anymore, i dont wanna feel sad , but there are moments where i miss you , i really do. Times when i reflect on what i've done , i know im not special or anthing , but it well , i can say you were special to me. I re-read my old blog posts and seriously , smetimes i feeel like just crying but , time waits for no man and i have to move forward. Guess i never really got over you. I missed times when i still can belive that when you said no , it'll sound like try again and i'll pick myself up and tried my best. Guess my best wasnt good enough. Wasnt special enough i guess. But what hurt me the most , well , you had me believe in something that is never gonna happen , I could've saved myself alot of pain and time if you were a lil more straightforward. Well history is history and i'd pray it never repeats itself.

You know what , im actually like half dead inside everyday , trying to smeli way way through every freaking day. Sick and tired , never recovered from the flu and cough i caught in japan , hope its not h1n1 or some shit. My usual sleeping time perday is like 3-4 hours , i have realy bad insomnia nowadays, and god dammit do i feel lonely. I have a ton of friends , but none of them i can actually speak to quietly and expres myself personally. I dont have that person that i can talk everything and anything to. Maybe a few come close but yeah. cant really express myself personally , i portray infront of you someone you want to see , not the real me , minus the cigarette fagging part. But if were that someone would come , i'd give up a billlion cigarettes or a billlion dota games for that someone , Serious Shit.

I guess i'll just spend more time talking to myself.

I feel like smothering someone , like seriously :)

Let me be the one who calls you baby
All the time
Surely you can take some comfort
Knowing that you're mine
Just hold me tight, lay by my side
and let me be the one who calls you
Baby all the time

I found my place in the world
Could stare at your face for the rest of
my days
Now I can breathe, turn my insides out
and Smother me
Warm and alive I'm all over you
  would you smother me?

Let me be the one who never leaves
        You all alone
        I hold my breath and lose the feeling
        That I'm on my own
        Hold me too tight stay by my side
       and let me be the one who calls you
       Baby all the time

       When I'm alone time goes so slow
         I need you here with me
      and how my mistakes have made
         Your heart break
     Still I need you here with me
         Baby I'm here.

Hee :D , i know im cheesy. Just wanted to show off a lil bit :P.

Thats all for now , Goodnight :)

OH Random POST! Whats my age again?

I took her out, it was a Friday night
I wore cologne to get the feeling right
We started makin' out and she took off my pants
But then, I turned on the TV

And that's about the time she walked away from me
Nobody likes you when you're 23
And are still more amused by TV shows
What the hell, is ADD, my friends say I should act my age
What's my age again?
What's my age again?

Then later on, on the drive home
I called her mom from a payphone
I said I was the cops and your husband's in jail
This state looks down on sodomy

And that's about the time that bitch hung up on me
Nobody likes you when you're 23
And are still more amused by prank phone calls
What the hell is call ID, my friends say I should act my age
What's my age again?
What's my age again?

And that's about the time she walked away from me
Nobody likes you when you're 23
And you still act like you're in freshman year
What the hell is wrong with me, my friends say I should act my age
What's my age again?

That's about the time that she broke up with me (what's my age again?)
No one should take themselves so seriously
With many years ahead to fall in line
Why would you wish that in me, I'll never wanna ct my age
What's my age again?

2010 ;')

Sweet! another year has come and pass , there goes high school. Sigh , i wish high school never ends, all the times scaling walls and climbing out thru the padang fences. Smoking outside in the lorong with the gang. Although i try to reduce and quit it eventually :) . Yes , i started when i was form 1 with my bestfriend back then , Yong Hui. Bad habit , dont smoke , bad for health. Yes , people come and go , and there are freinds that i intend to keep for life. Yes , you know who you are. Well , this year , im glad to say i found out who my true friends are. And even though i've ben thru more fail romances this year than i did my whole entire secondary life , im glad i met those people. One even ended up being like one of my best friends. Im really gonna miss SMKSU. C'mon man , where else can you kick a vending machine and get 4 ice lemon teas for the price of 1? Where else can you sleep in class get scolded , and well sleeep again. Dodging discipline teachers in the doorways has become an art , a skill you must hone and sharpen. In the earlier days i got myself into deepshit , luckily i've changed for the better but still , my yearly attendance , lets just say im lucky to be in school two thrids of the time. Now im worrying my socks off because i didnt study for spm at all , hoping i would get enough for college. And for those who shits around behind my back , screw you because i know who you are , cant believe my ears when i heard. One day karma would eat your asses , you'll see. :)

 

 Now , who can forget this moment in time :D



 Okay , im tired of posting pics so...Watch these retarded vids i made when i was "suicidal" after some news. And i was partly high.
Retarded Tang Part 1
Retarded Tang Part 2

BESIDES THAT.
Most important thing i learned this year.



Bro Code Chapter One;

BROS BEFORE HOES.

Never choose a girl over your bro , i've done so many times and i regret it every single time. Never ever choose a girl over a bro.

See the Code , Learn The Code , Live The Code.

I will have another post on my Japan trip though.

"Life isnt the book but the pages you turn,

Judge not by the cover but the author alone."

"Im almost a guy who has pms , like whatthefuck."